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Jess

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Seriously...
« on: November 21, 2010, 11:59:42 AM »
Yesterday I had an amazing day, no suicidal thoughts no nothing. As soon as i get home all hell breaks loose, yes my mother again.

Due to the fact that i was coming home late, i decided to get a lift home, seems more sensible then walking home past pubs with drunkards in the dark, turns out my mother was at the bus station waiting but never informed me of this. I had attempted to contact her but my mobile had no signal, making contact extremally difficult. When i realised that she was at the bus station, i walked back to ensure that she did not have to walk home alone. Seems like no problem doesn't it. Well obviously not, as soon as we are through the door, she starts 'bitching' to her partner about me calling me ungrateful, selfish. Saying that i treat her like '&$%+'. Then of course her partner has to get involved, then mocking me and my father (why?). Even though i was calmly trying to explain that i could not contact her, they were not listening, in their minds i had been stupid and well vindictive, had i known my mother was waiting for me i would have not recived a lift home.

She then stormed up stairs yelling and throwing things, upsetting all of my siblings.
Just to drive the knife in further she then threatens to overdose saying that if she dies it will be my fault.

Her partner then comes downstairs yelling at me, telling me that i have a cushy life and that i don't deserve any of it, she then attemps to bring my moms health into account, forgetting how ill i have ever been, infact i had to go to hospital this week as i have cysts growing oh joy. Trying to make me feel bad for soeone having an illness is just not goig to happen. Now my phone has been confiscated, not a major problem but they then used my mobile facebook account to post on my own wall an apolgie with other insults in which i call myself, this is them pretending to be me. I know that they can be immature but that is just too far.

Do they honestly think that a suicide threat is going to affect me, i fake the emotions i feel for my family, i feel nothing towards them, i never have. The only family member i feel anything for is my father, thats only because he doesn't judge and he realises how much pain i live with everyday.

So there you go,  make your own judgement if you wish.

Jess x

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Re: Seriously...
« Reply #1 on: November 21, 2010, 03:14:20 PM »
Hi Jess great girl there's the spirit.  Nothing wrong with getting it off your chest, sorry your having to deal with so much, but unfortunately that's life and when we are ill it is more than difficult to cope with.  As you have shown before your are very wise for your age, and very compasionate for the situation your siblings are dealing with.  Hopefully your mum will cool, and she probably had herself worked up into a frenzy especially due to newspapers highlighting the rape of a young girl, and was in an overprotective mod (I know it wouldn't seem like it).  Sorry to hear you have cysts but hopefully they will get dealt with asap and everything will be ok, also glad you have your dad to lean on.  You know my mother still drives me crazy and I'm 48, thank goodness I still have my dad that keeps me level when I am in her vicinity.  BTW when my sons come home to visit, both 29 & 25 year olds I still stress until they come into the house and don't sleep till I hear their keys in the door(protection is a mum/dad thing too), however it is maybe a little different now as they want us to go out with them.  Take care Jess xx and keep strong.
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Re: Seriously...
« Reply #2 on: November 21, 2010, 06:39:33 PM »
Hi jess, dont feel like any of that was your fault, I have 2 son's myself they are 2 and 10 but if they were older I would be happy they got a lift home like you say its alot safer, your mothers depression and harmful thought are not your fault, and to say she would overdose because you didnt get on the bus is just wrong.
I hope thing calm down for you soon.
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Re: Seriously...
« Reply #3 on: November 22, 2010, 11:26:29 AM »
Hi Jess, sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Sounds like you're doing well at keeping yourself above it though. Families - aaaaaarrggg.
best wishes, bel.

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Re: Seriously...
« Reply #4 on: February 26, 2011, 03:51:01 PM »
Hi jess, sounds to me like your mother is spoilt. She is obviously only thinking of her mental state and to threaten to kill herself? How awful. Can you not move in with your dad or move out? Your home situation doesn't sound very positive for you to live in. Or maybe you could all sit down with someone who is impartial? So that you mom and step dad can't gang up on you?