Hello all,
I have always responded really well and fairly quickly to antidepressants in the past (I was on Mianserin for a few years, then venlafaxin for another few years).
7 months ago, venlafaxin stopped working so the gp I saw at the time suggested a cross over to citalopram.
7 months on and despite telling the doc MANY times "this is helping my anxiety but not my depression", I get a rigid answer "okay we'll up the dose to 40" then "give it more time", "citalopram is very effective", "we'll try CBT at the same time", "it's not to going to happen overnight", "add trazadone for sleeping"....
Situation now: I am better (after having got worse for probably two months) BUT on average I get two okay days a week and the rest is tough. I am still not sleeping very well (despite taking trazadone 50 at night), some days I can't eat before night time. I haven't been able to go back to work. Some days just out to the local shops is a struggle. I have not much pleasure in doing things apart from a little bit here and there on my okay days. My mood tends to lift at night but the mornings are tough. Some days I cry my eyes out and feel I am going to be stuck like this forever!
CBT is helping a little bit but sometimes I can barely do my homework which is a shame as CBT had worked really well for me in the past!!!
My husband thinks (like I do) that because I saw a lot of junior doctors and various GPs maybe there isn't a structured plan for my recovery and no particular reason why I am being kept on citalopram. He is going to come with me to see a senior GP at the practice next week.
Has anybody been in that situation before? Do you think it's me being in a particular bad state or just sounds like citalopram is not helping? Will I ever be able to be back to my happy self? Will a change of medication made me really bad again?
Thanks for any advice and reassurance.
