Hey, thanx for your lovely words =+- %^%
Not sure what to say...feeling a bit numb...but monday night I did get the best nights sleep I'd had in months and in my own bed too...even made my daughter a cooked brekkie the next morning! lol
Think it was purely, cos I'd had no sleep all weekend, felt very hyper, but when I went to my docs appt on monday, I got there they told me he had phoned in sick. They had called apparently, I did get one missed call early, (I dont answer the phone these days), they never left a message either.
I said my meds and sick note ran out that day, and they asked me to come back at 5...I couldn't make that journey again, was already stressed about the 45 minute bus trip I'd just made! So they asked what meds i needed and i didn't know what my doc had planned, so i didn't know....shaking by that point they said I should see a doctor and to come back later...so this pushed me into a full blown panic attack right in the middle of the surgery!!!! They were lovely and put me in a room so i could wait for one of the docs to squeeze me in ...an hour later, and the doc who saw me...was really lovely!! Couldn't talk about what I needed to cos I was still shaking and had a brain like swiss cheese...but it was all done thankfully, and she didn't make me feel like a fool...so it helped me calm down!
As soon as I had put my daughter to bed I flopped in mine fully clothed, wasn't expecting to sleep but the day had been a weeks worth of stress! So I was oout like a light!
Unfortunately, back on the sofa now....have got about 2 hours sleep..and not feeling too bad so far...just numb, but getting the odd smile out there...and still waiting for the end to come...but doing ok today!!!!
Sorry if it's a bit garbled, taken me over half hour to type! lol tried to edit it, to help it make more sense.
Thank you michael, hope you are doing great today?? *()
And thanx hopeful..think my email adress is available to see on my profile if you or anyone wants to get in touch too *()