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Sweetpea

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #30 on: July 14, 2012, 10:26:03 PM »
%^% and for you. S x x x x
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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #31 on: July 25, 2012, 07:55:27 PM »
Dear Mamalou,

I am sorry that it has taken me this long to get back to you. I found myself without internet and a PC for the last couple of weeks.

Firstly, YES I do believe strongly that you can get better even after 20 years! As I heard today it's never to late to see the light in the distance.

And it took me a very long time to be able to just breathe and let the thoughts and feelings flow without worrying, but once you there: it's far from perfect, but it is most certainly worth it!! If you are really having trouble with this technique try breaking it up into little pieces (whichever way you prefer)- babysteps are the way to learn skills for life!

It also helps me to write all my worries and feelings down. Just a pen and paper and everything that comes up. Then a little break and then some reflection on what I can do to 'heal' them or why they are there.

Best of luck and again sorry for this late reply!! And I have been deeply suicidal and all that goes with it. It can get better!!

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #32 on: July 25, 2012, 09:24:13 PM »
Sundayrose, thank you so much for taking the time to reply.

I am struggling to hold on. I really want to remove myself from this life - the extra meds I have been given are so tempting. It's like a fantasy that can come true.

 

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #33 on: July 26, 2012, 08:49:07 AM »
Hang in there mamalou xxx
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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #34 on: July 26, 2012, 11:10:24 AM »
Keep fighting xxx  :vik:

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #35 on: July 26, 2012, 08:19:10 PM »
Dear Mamalou,

I am sorry to hear this. It's an awful way and nobody should ever feel this way. Unfortunantly many do :(

Have you tried writing stories? I wrote some stories about how I wanted to fly away and stop feeling, thinking and it really helped me. As did it to take trips away from my everyday surrondings and be alone and forget things. It sound as something which is very unhealthy to say that you should get away from your life for a while. But if you just take some time out and say 'now this is a break from what I normally knows' and allow yourself to live another life where work, worries or trouble don't exist then I think it can really help giving strenght to deal with 'real life' and allow you to see joy in the little things.

It's a bit hard to explain, but I hope you understand what I mean? For me it really helped, writing fairy tales or having a picnic by a nice lake a while away from where I live.

Best of Luck!

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #36 on: July 28, 2012, 07:57:14 AM »
How are you feeling today ?

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #37 on: July 28, 2012, 09:29:27 PM »
Feel so low. Couldn't manage to wake up this morning so my husband had to physically shake me ( not violently!!).

It's my birthday tomorrow and I couldn't think of anything worse to be honest. I don't want to be here let alone pretend to celebrate !

Take me away please.

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #38 on: July 28, 2012, 09:35:14 PM »
 %^% for you mamalou xx
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« Reply #39 on: July 28, 2012, 09:37:19 PM »
Have you thought about sundayrose's suggestion of writing.  I go throught phases of writing poetry, have written two books and am in the process of writing 2 more.  The first two were non fiction, one I'm writing now is non fiction and the other fiction.  Over the years I have also kept up with blogs as I find that helps too.

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #40 on: July 28, 2012, 09:51:40 PM »
Keep fighting  :vik: :vik:

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #41 on: July 28, 2012, 10:50:45 PM »
%^% for you Mamalou. S x x x x
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« Reply #42 on: July 29, 2012, 10:08:55 AM »
Sadly not able to write. I have terrible problems with focus and concentration. I have tried to write, just anything, but absolutley can't.  :(

I don't think I'm going to make it through. Too tired. Too deeply deeply depressed and unhappy.

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #43 on: July 29, 2012, 10:15:42 AM »
Please be safe louise.

You have been such a support to me over this past week remember "we are standing beside each other" experiencing the same things.

You are a lovely person. I really hope you start to feel better. 

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Re: I can't anymore.
« Reply #44 on: July 29, 2012, 10:49:45 AM »
Hang in there mamalou xxx
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