thinking crazy ideas....just had enough I guess

[mrmoody]

just thinking crazy things like writing suicide notes to all my friends and suicide methods....wont mention any here but one was quite brutal I thought of last night. Then start thinking....lets dissapear somewhere, back to California,go to Stockton California(travel to NY and hitchhike over to the west coast) and become a hobo and maybe I could die out there seeing as thats the place I loved and was happiest in....California I mean.Maybe I could buy a gun. Then start thinking of dissapearing to Italy(I was there sleeping rough for 5 weeks back in winter with a Greek friend of mine so it isnt that far-fetched)

[Zaf]

I sometimes have thoughts of disappearing too, nowhete quite as exotic, an isolated cottage somewhere very remote in Scotland

[mrmoody]

no I mean not where anyone can find me again

[Zaf]

No one at all or people you know?

[Sweetpea]

Oh Alex you can't do that, people will be worried for you.

S x x x x

[DarylR]

i can relate to that Zaf, the thought of somewhere isolated, if only i could afford it lol

[Zaf]

Just think miles and miles of wilderness between me and the rest of the world - absolute bliss :)

[whiteadder]

The lure of escape. Know how that feels too mate. Sometimes I think of leaving this country, with its beautiful countryside neatly sectioned off for those who can afford it, but then I remember the NHS and suddenly the local park doesn't seem so bad. Or I dip my feet in the sea - no one can inherit that and charge me rent to be there.

[Sweetpea]

I remember posting here a while ago about some of us disappearing to a remote island, with no pressures and sun and sea.  Bliss  :).

So if ever I win the lottery I will take whoever wants to come from here  :).

S x x x x

[Zaf]

Book me a space on that island please shaz :)

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

No prob Zaf, as long as I get the window seat  .

S x x x x

[Zaf]

No problem, I take it we'll be going first class? 

Z xx

[mrmoody]

thanks for turning my post about suicide or dissapearing into some kind of joke. no I was thinking of dissapearing where no one can find me. not some desert island dream. which to be honest I think would drive most people up the wall after awhile anyways

[Zaf]

It wasnt intended to upset you, some posts just develop that way.

Z xx

[mrmoody]

it did upset me. you want to know what the brutal method was...I saw a train pull into the station last night and realised how easy it would be to run onto the tracks and put my neck on the rails and be decapitated. my idea of going somewhere isnt pleasant either, being a hobo or bum on the road in a foreign country is both difficult and stressful. but anything beats this. I cant take much more of this &$%+. its ok for you lot, you have partners and family and people who love you. try living alone in a &$%+hole with no one, no job,no hope no nothing and not having any family cos they despise you and a vindictive ex who stops you from seeing your only children