thinking crazy ideas....just had enough I guess

[Sweetpea]

We didn't mean to upset you, but sometimes its nice to see the lighter side of depression.

S

[Sallas]

I get ye, i dont have a partner or kids, last year i had no job and bat load of debt and lived in ahouse that scared the &$%+ out of me and a house mate who was crazy in the physco killer kinda way. Nobody meant to be offensive about getting away i suppose its just the first thing people thing of when u talk about going somewhere isolated is a desert island. Have u ever seen a movie called Into The Wild? Its about a guy who drops everything and goes hitching towards Alsaka, i wont ruin the ending but ur idea reminds me of the movie. Well i kinda have to ruin alittle bit of it but its a factial story so u may already know he ends up isolated, alone and starves. I always thought id like to have one last adventure before it ends. Like its this bad now how could it possible go wrong? I die? Saves me a job at the end. I dont know what ur thinking, is that where u are at though? Or is it more u hate urself so much u think u desere to die horrifically? I get that too. Ive looked at knifes for two long, thinking just one hit to the stomach...
Either way sorry ur feeling so &$%+, i hope it gets better, stay strong x

[mrmoody]

sorry for being tetchy. I have seen the film, I always thought he must have had mental health problems hence why he gave away all that money and ended up dying of starvation or didnt he eat some poisionous berries? Anyways I know some people glorified his life a little after seeing the film and I read a piece by a ranger in Alaska that basically said he was sick of seeing young people turn up in Alaska and copying the guy because they had seen the film and then found themselves in trouble. I thought he was perhaps someone suffering but his family wanted to know him which makes it all the more sad whereas mine dont give a &$%+ about me nor does my ex

[Sallas]

Yeah but watching the film he didnt know his family wud be that bothered. But we saw they actually were. Maybe ur family & ex do care and u just dont realise. But then againt maybe there just twats like alot of my so called mates. We can do nothing about wether other people give a &$%+ about us, we have been dealt a bum deal i suppose we just gotta make the most of it ( i say that from a purely hypocritial point of view though obviously since im here too). It wud be nice to start again though, doenst matter where or how many people are around, a fresh start would be ammmmazing though!

[mrmoody]

having done it, gone to Italy for five weeks and slept rough in Tuscany and also a more 'organised' move to Amsterdam for 9 months I know its not easy at all and all you do is take yourself to a new place. Having said that its bloody fantastic living in a new city like Amsterdam and exploring it at your own pace and I have many happy memories of the place

[mrmoody]

no my mum and dad arent twats and I still love them dearly, they are just very flawed. But they wont face up to that so its easier to put and place it all on the one person who was the most likely to absorb it all and was the most sensitive and messed up...ME!!

[Zaf]

 &*(