I don't want to feel sad anymore

[Maddymoo]

I hate feeling like this. It's leeching the life out of me. I've had an absolutely &$%+e week, I don't want to do anything and it's taking what little energy I have to do the basics of looking after my children. I think perhaps my citalopram has stopped working because I felt fab at my last Meds check two months ago, but since then I've been downhill. Hate being like this, everything is too much effort, even sometimes little things like putting the milk back in the fridge. How lazy is that?!

[Ohdaddy]

Is it just an off week?   If it persists it would be a good thing to go back to your gp. I know what its like - there are loads of things here I could get on with but I just can't find it in me to do it. I usually make myself go out for a walk everyday - that sometimes helps. I forced myself to paint the kitchen last week - I did not get far but when I got going it felt better.  Depression does sap your motivation and takes away any get up and go you have. You're not the only one.

OD

[Maddymoo]

Thank you, I've been slowly feeling worse over the last few weeks if I'm honest, but I'm at the docs on Tuesday so I'm gonna talk to him. Just want to be happy again

[KateG]

Hope your GP can do something. It's awful that this illness takes so much from us &*(

[Maddymoo]

I know, I worry what kind of life I'm giving my children

[Zaf]

You sound a very caring person so I'm sure you're giving them a good life.

I hate this illness too, looking back its taken years away from me

[Maddymoo]

I hope I am, I know things could be so much better though

[Sweetpea]

So feel for you, depression has taken so much of my life too.  I was also on Citalopram and it stopped working for me, so my phych dr changed my meds.  So its worth having a chat about changing when you see your dr.

S x x

[Maddymoo]

I'm only on 20mg so it may just be that the dose needs upping. I've had to tell my close family and friends just how low I feel right now, it's no good trying to get by on my own.

Maddy

[Zaf]

I find 20mg too low for me so its possible you need a higher dose

Z xx

[Maddymoo]

Thank you everyone xx

Maddy

[Maddymoo]

I don't even know what the point of me being here is anymore, I can't look after my children properly, my partner is doing practically everything because I just can't, and I can barely tolerate their voices for more than a few minutes before inside my head I am saying 'shut up!!!' what kind of mother does that make me?

[Micky]

You have to remember that depression is an illness. All it makes you is a sick mother, not a bad one.

[Maddymoo]

Tell that to my kids, they must be able to tell I can't be doing with them, how awful must they feel can't wait to go to the docs tomorrow

[Micky]

Children are more resiliant than you think.  How old are they? Try and explain that you're not well at the moment.