Hello

[Little Finder]

hi, I am new to this whole thing. Things are at there lowest in a while and though I have been lower, this time its harder to see an end to it, and as no one around me has been through depression i thought i would try to talk to people who do or have. I am not sure where to start, other than here to say hi and a little bit about what brought me here.

[Zaf]

Hi, you'll find everyone very understanding an helpful as most of us suffer with depression

[shal]

Hey little finder,im in the exact same boat as u hun xx

[Sweetpea]

Hello and welcome.

We all understand here.

S x

[Rycing]

Hi, Little Finder, I'm quite new here, but what's helping me is talking to others that really do understand. x

[Little Finder]

thank you everyone. It is sad that others are in the same boat, but I'm glad that i can speak to people who actually get what i am saying. I don't know how many times I've heard, "oh just go out for a walk you will feel better" or "just get over it." and i know most of my friends don't mean anything by it, but if i could just walk this off i would of done by now. I am bi-polar, Though i haven't been manic for a while and I am stuck in a down spiral. As I said in my last post I have felt worse before but I think I have lost my inner fight this time.

sorry to hear you are in same boat Shal. Though depression is talked about more it is hard to understand from the outside.

[Sweetpea]

Its hard for others to understand, if they have never suffered from depression, if only we could do the things people ask. I know getting out of bed in the morning can seem like climbing a mountain.

S x

[Zaf]

I agree totally with shaz, if you havent suffered from depression you can have absolutely no idea how bad we can feel, I dont think that even the most caring of partners who try their utmost to help us and understand can completely grasp how we feel.

My husband knows I become agorophobic at times and have severe panic attacks even at the thought of going outside but he doesnt know how terrifying it feels or what it feels like however hard he tries

[Little Finder]

Certainly does sometimes Shaz. and leaving the house can seem like a greater task.

[Sweetpea]

I know I have been places and thinking I just have to get out of here, others had no idea how I was feeling, I felt it was written all over me.  Its a horrible feeling.

ASDA was my worst place, had 2 severe panic attacks while waiting at the till, felt as if I was going to pass out, just told Craig I have to get out of here and bolted.  Still struggle while shopping now, fear that it will happen again, we try and do our shopping when its quiet.

S x

[Zaf]

Panic attacks can be a nightmare

I hate going to the supermarket so much I get mine on line these days

[Ezel]

Belated welcome from me.

[Glen53]

Welcome along.

As said above its very hard to understand depression from 'outside' the illness. The way I describe it to friends is that I would not be able to walk well with a broken leg.... They dont seem to get the link between an illness and depression, they tend to think its just misery brought on by something - not as a chemical imbalance which is what it usually turns out to be.

I hope you can find as much support and comfort on the forum as I have.

[Little Finder]

Thank you, I agree trying to explain things to people around me has been such a arduous task that I don't want to try anymore. your analogy is a good one though. the closest i got was tosay, imagine if you took a high dose of caffiene and then a strong sleeping pill with time delay coatings and you had no idea wich one or even when they where going to kick in. for me its the not knowing what state im going to be in when i make my way through the day.

[Glen53]

All you can do is take each day as it comes and deal with each struggle as it finds you.