Hello,
I have never been to one of these forums before. I used to think of myself as confident and robust...dealt with anything life threw at me.
I first got serious depression 6 years ago after the birth of my youngest child. I was as low as low can be...lots of suicidal thoughts...didn't want to go on....
I had prozac (for a year) and CBT, which helped a lot and I was back to my old self.
Since then, I am much more fragile and much more likely to be at a low ebb. Not seriously depressed like I was, but to a lesser degree.
I can feel those old feelings returning (It's been a bad year)...self loathing, irritability to the extreme, stressed and anxious. I can cry over next to nothing. I'm starting to think that others are against me....although I am able to rationalise most of those thoughts.
I have used the coping strategies I learned before, i.e exercise, hobbies. Sometimes I will be ok for a few days, then I'm right back down.
I'm feeling detached from others, lonely in my relationships, worried for the future......it's all too familiar.
I'm at the stage where I'm thinking of returning to my G.P.....but I don't want to be 'needing help' all my life. "£"