Hey Everyone.
It's been 5 years since I first wrote on this site. I wanted to message to say thank you for the support you guys gave me. It really helped. I have read my posts and they feel like a distant memory.
I wanted to message to give you an update. I disappeared because I met someone. Despite being in a very sad place back then I was still able to meet her. It was difficult at first as I had very deep seated trust issues and self loathing issues. She suffers from depression also but it seemed that while we were together we were both able to control ourselves.
My Drinking was pretty bad and I had just lost my job over it so things were looking pretty bad. She didn't seem to care. We ended up engaged after only 3 months and after 4 months she announced she was pregnant. This was the happiest I've ever been and was definitely the Kick up the backside I needed to do something with myself.
I ended up stopping drinking heavily (Still a social drinker once a month or so) and I was able to find myself a Job that I was happy in. My daughter was born in August 2014. She has been my rock and my best friend since. Things continued to go from strength to strength and We were married in September 2016. A week after our wedding we found out she was pregnant again and my second Daughter was born in May 2017. I've been promoted to a Team Leader this year too in the same job I got when I met her.
I guess I'm writing this to let you guys know that I haven't ever forgotten this site and will always let people know it's here if they need someone to talk to.
I'd never say I'm cured and neither will my Wife but with each others support we have pulled through and are leading a relatively normal life.
Remember that There will be a better future for everyone and I hope you find someone who can support you in life and make you as happy as I am now.
Much love to you all
