Hi there, i'm new and feel a bit unsure of things right now, even writing on here. I'm 36, have a long history of Depression and anxiety issues.
The last couple of weeks things have started to spiral, some self harm a few days ago and my depression is getting worse each day. Right now I am going through hell with my sleep and although I have lots of underlying issues it's the sleep problems that feel tortourous and are pushing me over the edge. From time to time I have fear based insomnia, literally I can get to sleep fine for months and months and wam! I fear falling to sleep, resist it, get more tired and anxious and resist it some more and on and on...this started again about two weeks ago.
In the past once I felt rested and got a decent night and a decent day feeling refreshed my anxiety would drop and I could get some confidence back. Just one or two days to get back on track. Right now this isn't happening and I don't know what to do. It's all such a mess.
The situation now is that My GP prescribed Zopiclone, I've been taking it and sleeping 6 hours or so, sounds good and it doesn't let my anxiety fight sleeping. But everyday I feel terrible, I don't just mean a little tired or groggy..I'm literally going thru the day like I have had a couple of hours. So by 2pm I still need more sleep to function atall, but still need meds right now to take the edge of the fear if I am going to sleep/nap in the day aswell. My GP told me not to take it in the daytime so I have resisted so far but then I just seem to be fighting all day and carrying all this tiredness over to the next day and it never ends. I have now been taking it for 9 days.
Anyway last night I tried something different, maybe something stupid because I feel like I have nothing to lose right now. I took the Zopiclone at bedtime, got the 6 hours and woke up and couldn't face another day feeling like yesterday so took another one, put me back to sleep for another 3 hours. Three hours later and I feel like I'm back at 11pm again, dog tired, drowsy, the fear and anxiety are back and I'm now contemplating taking another so that's about 22mg in a 16 hour window. _-+
Is this what all sleeping tablets do, switch you off but when you wake up you feel severe sleep deprivation and desperate all day? Or am I carrying a sleep debt and I just need to take more until I feel more rested during the daytimes.
I told my GP about the medication but she refuses to review it and implied all tablets will do this. So maybe I should bin them and go it alone.
Sorry so long and confusing.