Hello, I am new here. I am 30, female, and I live in England with my cat and my problems. I like nature, animals and conservation, I watch a lot of David Attenborough documentaries. I enjoy cooking and baking, but I mostly stick to simple stuff. I enjoy cross-stitching and bird-watching.
I have long-standing depression, anxiety and OCD. I also have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Asperger's Syndrome. I also have a lot of trouble with sleep and stomach problems. All of my problems interact and make each other worse. The thing that holds me back most is probably the anxiety. The CFS is relatively mild, but it also holds me back a lot.
In June my brother died suddenly in an accident. It's been a really hard time, but I'm surprised at the strenght I've found because I don't really *do* coping normally. My parents have been amazing and my brother's friends have been a massive source of support. Sometimes though, I still don't believe he is really gone.
I am the only one now and I fear a lot for the future. My parents help me out a lot because I'm a bit rubbish at everyday life. When they get old and eventually go, I don't know how I will manage. Because of my Asperger's I am not very good at making friends, and because of the CFS I cannot really get out much. I am very isolated and my parents are my only friends.
I used to live quite near my parents but I have just moved much closer. I hate change and the move has set me back energy-wise and mentally. I am spending a lot of energy stressing! But it is very good to be so close to my parents and I know I will settle eventually.
So that is me spilling my guts. I hope to make friends here and offer some support too.
