another newbie

[hairyyahoo]

right, i've been sitting here staring at this blank screen for a while now so i'm just gonna start typing and see what comes out. i'll try to keep the waffle-o-meter within acceptable tolerance levels .

hello to you all, my name's chris although i actually prefer my user name since it also does double duty as a physical description, so feel free to refer to me as "hairy"

been suffering the Big "D" now for about 20 years or so on and off. been a lot worse these last couple of years though since the end of a particularly complicated long term relationship nearly 3 years ago (details available if necessary). not currently medicated or in counselling but have been within the last 18 months. thinking about going back on the pills at the moment as i'm having a bad spell that's by characterised an intense feeling of hopelessness, apathy and recuring morbid/suicidal daydreams and fantasies (which i have ABSOLUTELY NO intention of acting on i hasten to add, but even so they're not exactly condusive to good mental health or emotional wellbeing!). i'm sure many of you will know the feeling of waking up every day and wondering "what's the bloody point of it all!?!"

in short, i'm majorly bummed out!

i'm also not able to talk about anything like this with friends and family...can't bring myself to burden them with my woes and some of them have shown that they just don't know how to deal with it (lost count of how often i've been told to keep my chin up!). 

anyhu, thanks for listening and i look forward to bumping into y'all on the boards.

p.s - this  *(* is easily the weirdest smilie i've ever seen...love it!

[Zaf]

Welcome hairy :)

I too have suffered from depression on and off for nearly 20 years, stress and/or difficult or traumatic life events are my usual trigger.

I would suggest going to your GP and getting back on some meds as a first step and possibly some counselling, you'll get lots of support here from everyone too :)

[Lol]

Hi Hairy one, That was a good first post for someone who didn't quite know what to put. Welcome to the forum, I hope you find it supportive, I certainly have. I too feel like a burden to let things out to friends and family and there is nothing like people who understand the illness to gain perspective and support so please feel free to talk about whatever you want and we will support you however we can.

And yes  *(* the ear licking thing is some kind of knights of the round table indoctrine so please, go lick some ones ear, then you can come in.  

[hairyyahoo]

ta very much chaps

I too have suffered from depression on and off for nearly 20 years, stress and/or difficult or traumatic life events are my usual trigger.

strangely, it was gettin a new job that set me off this time, practically the best thing that's happened to me in a long time.
no emotional reaction what-so-ever when i got the job offer 2 weeks ago, full blown depressive episode 2 days before the start date.
go figure

And yes  *(* the ear licking thing is some kind of knights of the round table indoctrine so please, go lick some ones ear, then you can come in.  

that's a fair sized chunk of the world's supply of randomness right there

also, i'm an old  hand at this type of message board forum...50% insightful on-topic comment, 50% completely left field tangent, levels to be adjusted on as needed.

[Zaf]

That I cant explain hairy but I do know my last mini breakdown this July came on much quicker than usual and followed 4 or 5 months when I felt top of yhe world (and probably did too much)

[Got]

Hello Hairy. I am also fairly hairy, getting  so by the day. *(*

[danbob]

hai and welcome :)

[hairyyahoo]

excessive hairyness is is a clear sign of uncommon greatness stevie...either that or the fact that razors are fairly low down on our list of shopping priorities

[Bexwa]

Welcome Hairy!