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[weenancy]

hi 1st post!!!  feeling a bit nervous.  i went to the doctors finally this week and was told i was suffering from depression and anxiety. me!!! what i have i got to be depressed about.   i am so glad i found this site.  i really need to talk to somone who understands where my head is at the moment. i need to know that there will be light at the end of the tunnel so to speak and i won't feel like this forever.

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome weenancy, I hope you'll find as much help and support here as I have :)

[Lol]

Welcome to the forum weenancy. Depression is such a complex illness but there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Particularly if you seek the proper help and medication available. You are therefore on the right track. Well done! If you feel talking here would be beneficial fire away and we will support you however we can. Don't worry about how things come out, often spillage of internal conflict comes out a bit higgledypiggledy but we will know what you mean! It seems we all share the same head space!!!

[Got]

Hello, I am new as well

[Depina]

Welcome Weenancy, I know you will get kindness on here which is what we all need when we have depression.XXXX 

And Welcome Stevie I know this forum has been a great help to me, I love it that even though we are up and down we can still laugh and have a joke!!   

Laughter is a lifesaver I think !!!

[HSS1982]

Hi weenancy, i'm Harry and also suffer with both depression and anxiety. Tell us how you're feeling, whatever's on your mind we're here to help each other. Take care x

[weenancy]

hi all

thanks.  my name is janet.  i went to the doctors last wednesday and was shocked when he told me i had classic symptoms of depression and anxiety.  i had no idea but knew i could no longer handle feeling the way i did.  it had gotten to it that i did not want to leave the house and going to work was the hardest, crying all the time and never feeling happy.  i still don't quite get it !!  i've got a lovely husband who has been fantastic but if i'm honest doesn't quite get where i'm coming from but does to a degree understand how i am feeling. i have told my brother but feel unable to tell anyone else as i don't want them to feel sorry for me i suppose.

my doctor was fantastic and allowed me to talk about how i was feeling.  he has prescribed citalopram.  he told me it could make me feel worse at the start.  yesterday and this morning i have felt much more anxious and my stomach has churned all day and was also cold all day.  i don't know if this is what he means.  i didn't ask what he meant.  i didn't really ask anything.   he has also given me a web site to look at (moodjuice).  i looked at depression and couldn't believe that was me written on the page.  i still don't quite get it!!  what have i got to be depressed about :   i am finding it very hard to concentrate on anything at all  at the moment.

i'm glad i've found this forum as everyone seems really friendly and supportive

[Zaf]

Hi janet

Its great to hear your GP is really supportive,  sometimes depression just happens but we dont really understand why   if you get very worrying symptoms please do go back to your GP and tell him,  I am on citralopram and was told that sometimes they do upset your stomach at the very beginning which is why we are started off on a low dose (20mg), if you feel your depression getting very much worse till you see him again do please get an emergency appointment and GO IMMEDIATELY

you might find this site useful http://www.familyhealthguide.co.uk/depressive-illness-the-curse-of-the-strong.html,  there is also a book by that name,  it really explains everything very clearly and I know when my husband read it he did understand my depressive episodes much better.

Everyone here is lovely and the help Ive had here has been enormous,  hopefully you will find the same xx

[Lol]

Hello Janet. You must never feel that you have to be depression about something. As zaf says this chemical imbalance can happen to any one at any time. The important thing is that you have recognised the need for help, have sought it and are on some treatment. this is a very important first step. Well done.

[Depina]

Hi Janet
I feel like that too. Agree with Zaf and Lol. I don't quite now why either. It can be very odd.
Thinking of you
Love Di XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[weenancy]

hiya

thanks for the advice and support from everyone, it's good to know you are all there to talk to.

janet xxx

[weenancy]

hi

feeling very  anxious today.  can't move myself off the couch to do anything!!!! feeling sorry for myself   cannot imagine at the moment ever feeling  better than this and thats not what i want but cannot get out of the bit!!!  whing whing whing, moan moan moan who want to listen to this all the time?

[Zaf]

You can feel better and with time you will, depression is such a frustrating illness with its ups and downs

We all need to have a whinge and everyone here understands why xx

[weenancy]

hi zaf

thanks.  i know today i am worrying about being off work.  my boss has been fantastic and very understanding.  i have been signed off for 2 weeks but worry how i will be when i go back.  i am worrying about letting people down and whether i can keep the happy face on there so as not to drag anybody else down !!!  i  don't have a stressfull job but i do put pressure on myself at work!!!  there have been a few stressfull times in the last 6 weeks that have just added to how i feel and it is silly things that would not normally bother me.

[Zaf]

Its incredibly difficult not to worry when we have depression but its worry that makes us worse, try not to worry about things too far in the future and take one day at a time - easier said than done I know!  Xx