New and a bit nervous

[Tori]

Found this website last night in a time of crisis.  I have been treated for depression of the past three months now but have suffered in the past too.  On medication and waiting for psychology which is a two month wait and starting to get desperate.  Would just be happy to find some people that understand depression and dont judge.  If I had a pound for every time someone has said just cheer up I would be a millionaire by now.  Was really wondering whether there are other out there that experience such extremes of ups and downs.  I am either desperate and teary or feeling okay and positive no inbetween.  After the breakdown of a important relationship and dont know how to get over it when everywhere I go and everything I do is a reminder which just adds to my illness.  I have even found myself trying to use emotional blackmail to try and get the relationship back.  Dont every recognise myself anymore. 

[Munchroom]

Hi Tori - Please don't feel nervous, we're all a really friendly bunch  :) I have found fantastic support and friendship through this forum.

I know exactly where you are coming from with the extreme highs and lows and seemingly no middle ground! Its so frustrating.... either I'm so exhausted and low I can barely drag myself out of bed OR I'm running around like a mad thing, thinking I can tackle everything and take on the world.... then that inevitably leads to a crash!

It is scary when we don't recognise ourselves and start doing things completley out of character...  I have also had a very significant relationship break down throughout my depression. The way I've re-acted to things and still cope with it all (or not cope) is not the way I would have handled it before my depression.

I hope you find support here  :) Feel free to post as much or as little as you like, we're all just trying to support each other xx

[Lol]

Hi Tori and welcome. You are going through a very difficult time and all the feelings you are having are very typical of depression. Remember that depression is a chemical imbalance, not something you can 'cheer up' from! It is real, you have been diagnosed and you are being treated. It is normal not to recognise the feelings you are having. You have come to the right place to talk openly and not be judged. We all understand. Nothing will shock us and we are here to support you. Medication to rectify the imbalance and talking therapies work very well as well as expressing your feelings, even if they don't make sense to you, to others who understand and will not judge. If you feel that despite medication and support you still don't feel right please return to your GP to discuss this. It is very common to change medication and alter dose during the course of depression before exactly the right combination is achieved. Well done for making the important steps you have. I hope you find it helpful to be here.  :)

[Depina]

Welcome Tori
people are friendly and helpful on here, so hope you feel comfortable to express your feelings, I find this helps me.
Take Care XX

[overcastrainbow]

I understand completely, the break up in a relationship was one of the triggers that led to my first depression episode that lasted 2 and a half years. Major ups and dowsn is part of the illnes,s im always like it. I was very happy and good on sunday but today im very low. The ups and downs are exhausting. And noone understands how we fel unless they suffered from it, or been close to a sufferer

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome, I really cant add anything to what has already been said, I have found this place a lifeline with everyone very supportive, certainly no one will tell you to cheer up as we all know thats not how depression works xx