Ok, so... About 6 weeks ago, my doctor decided it would be best if he put me back in touch with the local Mental Health Team. They took a while, but finally arranged an appointment (which was pretty shambolic in itself because they left me a message - not saying who they were, just asking me to call them back! The number wasn't traceable and it was on a pretty bad day, so I had a pretty much ended up having a massive anxiety attack, only to be told 'we don't say who we are when leaving messages just in case someone else picks the message up' Fine, fair enough, I get that - but what about those of us that are
very anxious about the phone????) Anyway... they made it for today. So, Chris manages to book the day off - after a guy at his work agree's to start his holiday a day later so that they won't be understaffed (I made him a cake in gratitude!) I've spent the last few days getting more and more anxious about it, I've discussed it a length with my Dr. - who is under the impression that they will increase my meds and/or suggest something else to help with my dreams in particular, which I so desperately need! And I have made an appointment with him for tomorrow, to discuss the outcome of today....
You probably guessed where this was going - but an hour before we were meant to be at the appointment, they cancel

And the receptionist sounded so blasé about it and said 'we'll send you out another appointment in the post' like... i can just happily go ' :) ok then, I don't need a massive amount of support to get there, I'm not gonna spend more days now before THAT appointment probably getting even MORE anxious than I have been this time and I'm not gonna spend the next few days with all this frustration and anger bubbiling away that I'm not gonna know how to cope with so will probably end up taking it out on myself'
I
know some things can't be helped, but I didn't even have a specific person I was seeing - I don't really mind
who I see!! It's the Mental Health team ffs! Do they not understand this?!
Sorry
