Hi. I posted a few days ago as a general introduction to the site. I had some great replies, and it always helps me in the moment to read what people have to say. However, the effects are not long lasting right now.
I need some advice, if anybody is able to give it.
At the moment I'm two weeks into a course of Citalopram (20mg/day) as prescribed by my GP. I've been struggling with depression on and off for 10 years, and I can't say I've ever felt TRULY care free since then. I've been advised by people on this forum to stick with the meds, which I will do.
I don't want to get into what I think my problems are just yet, as I don't think I could convey that clearly. at the moment I feel very unhappy, and feel like crying, but can't.
The main thought which is running through my head at the moment is of the girl I fell for who left me for her ex about a month ago. I don't have any contact with her now, and I know that's for the best. However, I can't get her off my mind. She's often the last thing and first thing I think about in the day, all that typical break up stuff. I got very attached, and I guess I could say that separation anxiety is a large part of my current problem. I'm expecting a package in the mail from her. A book she borrowed. The thought of seeing it fills me with panic.
Should I force myself to cry? I feel like I need to release the tension in my throat, and probably clear my mind. Should I think about what's making me upset at the moment in order to provoke some tears? I know I'll get over this girl in time. It's happened to me before. But usually during my depression episodes I'm quite able to let it out. This time I seem incapable.
Thanks for reading. I don't like to think that I'm wasting people's time on here. I sometimes think that my problems are trivial in comparison to others.