Two steps forward... Three steps back

[Munchroom]

Just got back from the doctors.... Told him how I felt that I was slowly slipping backwards, not every day, but I'm certainly not as good as I was a few weeks ago. Not sleeping... vivid dreams, feeling very low and trying to resist to need to self harm... also that feeling of just wanting to escape is creeping back in and its very very scary. He has changed my sleeping meds (again) and is getting back in touch with the community mental health team who happily discharged me a couple of months ago 

Will I ever be rid of this?!

[Zaf]

I'm so sorry to hear that, its a really cruel illness at times,  I was doing great for 3-4 months before I had my latest mini-breakdown, I despair of ever being properly well again

[seamie]

i,m sure you will kidder

[lightenup]

Hi Munchroom, sorry to hear your feeling unwell again.  The good thing is you are able to recognise the form of this animal and get the help.  I'm on a heavy dose of meds, and a heavy dose of stress which the Physchiatrist told me to stay away from!!! (How to you stay away from elderly parents and parents in law who are ill)  Anyway you know we are here to help, just the way you help the rest of us.  BTW I hope the new sleep med works and helps stopping the nightmares...............getting the rest is essential!  I got my logic head on for the moment....(((big hugs))) 

[cornish]

huge hugs  *(* ( and possibly what i think is an ear lick ) to you, hope the new sleeping meds work.

im sure you will be rid of it, your very positive when your giving me advice so imagine on of them little people in your head is me and you have to save me :)

[Munchroom]

Thankyou, all of you  :) Its so great to just be able to vent!!

Luckily I did mange to get a good nights sleep - Chris commented that I was softly snoring when he came up to bed and he thought 'ahhh... thats quite sweet....'   He hadn't been drinking... I'm not sure he's ever described my snoring or anyone elses as 'sweet' before!  

Feeling quite positive today - in stark contrast to yesterday!! Perhaps I just wasn't as close to being over all of this as I thought... Hopefully the mental health team will step in on time with some magical solution to stop it getting as bad as I was last year! Maybe I just need to take things slower...

 Huge &*( to all of you.... please don't take offence if I don't throw in Cornish's optional ear lick!! xx

[Zaf]

I cant imagine snoring sounding sweet, my OH sounds more like a pneumatic drill when he snores!

Its lovely to hear you're having a good day :)

[cornish]

but i was looking foward to an ear licking

glad your feeling a bit more positive :)

you sure he hadnt been drinking ??
it could be worse, i get sleep apnia and stop breathing and then make a loud snort when i start again,  it noramlly wakes me up too     its woken other people up in the past too 

[Munchroom]

Hahaha ahh... go on then  (Your ears better be clean!!)

I wake myself up by talking quite a lot.... I have whole conversations with chris and don't remember a thing in the morning!  Quite entertaining....

Chris sometimes sleeps with his eyes open  Freaked me right out when we were first going out... then I used to gently try and close them for him so he didnt wake up with dry eyes.... 8 years later I've kind of stopped doing that though