Hi everyone

[HSS1982]

Hi i'm Harry, 29 and been depressed for around 10 years. I'm not on any medication, haven't even been to my GP. I only realised I was depressed after I read about it in the paper. I don't have seem to have any energy to do anything, get irritated quite easily (although I hide it well). Just looking to talk to others and help each other out. That's about it for now...

[cornish]

hi and welcome, first of all id like to say that going to your gp as soon as you can would be a good idea and im sure most other people on here will recomend the same.
there are plenty of us here to talk to and we will happily help you as much as we can

[Zaf]

Hi Harry, I'm going to say the same as cornish, please do try to see your GP, its not always an easy thing to do but very necessary to take the first steps to beat the illness.

Everyone here knows what its like and you'll get lots of support and help  :)

[Munchroom]

Hi Harry - as Cornish and Zaf have both said, your doctor really is your main port of call. The first appointment can be terrifying, but depression is something that even with the best will in the world, you would struggle to fight on your own.

We're all here to listen and support were we can  :) Take care x

[HSS1982]

Thanks for the replies folks, there's a clear pattern in them. Sorry for taking so long so replying, I went off on holiday and forgot to reply before I left.
I suppose what I really want (need?) is someone to talk to. I've never been one to talk about my problems feelings and emotions. I've always kept them bottled up. I've emailed The Samaritans before in the past which helped, if only a little. I feel so empty on the inside.

[Depina]

Welcome Harry
I tried to cope on my own for ages,agree with others on here, good idea to get help
Take Care
D XX

[Lol]

Hi Harry

Start talking, what ever you can get out. Even if it doesn't seem to make much sense. Break the ice and tell us something and you will feel the benefit. We have all experienced negative feelings that we can't articulate so we'll know what you mean! Do you know if there is a reason for your deression? a time you can track it back to starting? or simply teel us how your internal emptiness feels.

Please see your GP and start to just think about talking to a professional BACP registered counsellor

Lol

[HSS1982]

Hi, my depression started when I was around 19. I'd started uni but struggled to make new friends. I nearly always feel I don't fit in for some reason. Almost anything I do ends in failure which led to me being more anxious/nervous. I've not got much self confidence and self esteem is quite low. Got so many thoughts in my head right now, as I usually do.

[Zaf]

It really helps to let it out when you can, the great thing about his forum is that veryone understands what its like, wont judge and will help if they can :)

[Lol]

Starting uni is a major change and you tend to have to do it on your own as opposed to going up a school where all your class mates might follow. Fitting in then becomes a personal challenge and if you don't have confidence in yourself that's terrifying! Did you have friends at school? Did you move city to go to uni? Were you confident when you left school and it was the uni bit that knocked it?

[Depina]

Hi Harry,
Everything you say sounds so familiar. It is very hard,especially new challanges.
I am not self confident and things just seem to go wrong, then I get angry !

I know there are courses to build up your self esteem.Maybe you could look at that?
Getting some help is a good idea
Keep hopeful
Take Care
D XX

[HSS1982]

So many replies I don't know where to start. I'm one of those people who never get what they want. I've always had to settle for second (third sometimes) best. I didn't do that well at school, I could've if i'd put more effort in but didn't see the point. Did about average at college and at uni it all went wrong. I've never had much luck with relationships either. Its simply a case of 'I know I won't get what I want so I won't bother trying'.

[Gemma]

Harry

Everything you're are writing sounds familiar. I understand why new challanges are hard. I'm about to go to study at uni and I'm dreading it but I'm so glad this site is here. Everyone here is really nice and helpful. I'm one of those people who never got what they wanted either but I don't believe that's a trigger to my depression, though it might well be for you. Not getting what I wanted has, I think, always been due to the fact I have such high expectations of myself, mostly due to pressures applied by my parents ect.
I was confident but then I got depressed and now I'm not. Do you think that your low self esteem is due to depression? I've felt awful since I've been unwell, I hate my image. I'm at the stage where I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore.
But this is about you.
Welcome to the site. I hope you find the solace that I have been finding here.
Take care. xxx

[Depina]

Hi Gemma, Hi Harry,
I think that depression does have an effect on self esteem, I dwell on and remember the things I don't get right, like a bad work experience,etc. I was bullied at school and took all this name calling and stuff to heart  "£" while some kids just got over it and got on with their lives as if nothing had happened. />. I wish I wasn't so sensitive. We should remember the good things we do and the things we get right.
You both have done a lot right to get to university. WELL DONE YOU !!

[Depina]

PS Whoops !!
I hadn't finished and pressed post 

Anyway you are both obviously clever - so good for you. />.


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