Hi there!

[stevie80]

Hello everyone. Just joined today after a few days of reading through the posts etc. Just built up the courage!

My name's Steven. I'm 30 years old and live in Scotland. I've suffered from depression since I was about 19. Over the past 2 months though, things have gotten really bad and I've been overcome with depression in a way I've never felt before. Currently having CBT however, I'm not actually convinced that I'm getting anything out of it.

I've been taking citalopram for as long as I can remember and was put up to a 60 mg dose about a year ago. My doctor has suggested I try metrazapine instead so I'm currently stepping down on my dosage of citalopram.

To be honest, I feel like a bit of a fraud even posting this. After reading through some of the posts, there are a lot of people who are worse off than me. Was just hoping to perhaps get in touch with some people who understand depression as no-one I know or talk to really gets it.

[Munchroom]

Hi Stevie and welcome  :)

Please don't feel like a fraud! Depression is unfortunately very very real and it effects everyone in different ways. I went from Citalopram to Mitrazapine last year - I only came off of Mitrazapine because it made me eat everything that I could get my hands on! I have other issues with food and weight, so.... that was not a good side effect for me!

I hope you can find some answers through this forum - we're all in this together at the end of the day!

Nay x

[stevie80]

Thanks Nay. I think that I get so worried about being judged that I never really open up properly which I guess doesn't help much!

[cornish]

hey and welcome, your definitely not a fraud.   im on mitrazipine for a while but im very resistant to medication and sadly it hardly works, nay is right about it making you want to eat lots though.

lots of us are good at listening and talking,  nay has been a huge help to me over the past few days

[Munchroom]

Thanks Cornish *Blushes*

Please don't feel as though anyone is judging you on here Stevie - we'll all listen and help where we can!

Take care x

[stevie80]

Thank you so much! It's so good to know that I'm not alone!

[Pete]

Thanks Nay. I think that I get so worried about being judged that I never really open up properly which I guess doesn't help much!

This comment is perfect and the reason that I have "denied" that anything is wrong for so many years.  It is what I have been thinking for so long but couldnt say it.