How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

I'm sure you can't feel like doing anything at the moment Cornish. You don't have to. We are standing by you.

[Got]

There are many things that contribute to the depression. Unfortunatly, I beleive some of them are medical, it isnt just situational. If I wasnt ill non of the bad things would have happened.

I dont know what to do about the suicidal thoughts, they are becoming more and more frequent. I am hoping they can do something to allow me to be stable again, because at the moment I am not stable at all.

I hope every one is ok.

[Alstare1974]

I know that feeling Stevie and it's very scary at times.

Am currently watching remembrance service and remembering my lost friends. Can't help wishing I'd died in service so people could be proud of me.

[Got]

I am sure people are proud of you mate.

[Lol]

The rememberence service is absolutely awe-inspiring, you must be so proud. Of yourself and of you friends.

[Alstare1974]

I'm proud of my friends but I do miss them. Watching Ian die over three weeks was awful and Marc's death in 2003 in the gulf nearly killed me.

[Zaf]

It wouldnt be normal not to miss them Alstare

[Alstare1974]

Do wish I could swap places :-(

[Zaf]

I wish I knew how to help  &*( &*(

[Alstare1974]

Thanks

[Lol]

Alstare what a $&^%|*&$ disaster. I'm sorry.

[Zaf]

just rememeber we are here for you and will help in any way we can  &*(

[Alstare1974]

Thanks guys. Don't know what to say. Guess it's just more stuff to deal with at the moment.

I want to start trying to get up by 10am and stop sleeping all day but it's just so hard. I feel like I am just sleeping my life away. Problem is I am scared to go to bed at night and often don't fall asleep until after 3am. I think this is depressing me more I just struggle to change it.

[Zaf]

Its not going to be an easy time Alstare as Rememberance day etc is going to stir up some painful memories

As far as sleep is I'd say go with the flow and sleep when you need to until things get better,  your body needs rest and its getting it when it can

[Got]

I want to start trying to get up by 10am and stop sleeping all day but it's just so hard. I feel like I am just sleeping my life away. Problem is I am scared to go to bed at night and often don't fall asleep until after 3am. I think this is depressing me more I just struggle to change it.

This is a major issue for me...and one that is geeting worse all the time.

I hope you begin to feel better soon mate....you've got a lot going on at the moment, I feel for you.