How are you feeling today?

[Got]

No...just headache, pain behind the eyes, sore joints and muscles. It'll be reet.

[Zaf]

Does sound like a virus    


Plenty of liquid, keep warm and lots of rest....

[Alstare1974]

I feel tearful again.

[Munchroom]

Hope you feel better soon Stevie  - Lots of rest and hot drinks!!

Why do you feel tearful Alstare? Anything in particular?


I'm feeling a bit restless  Have felt quite low today and ashamedly couldn't resist slipping back into self harm 
Managed to cook something for dinner that I promised Chris yesterday and I also ate some - which is a positive. Then got a bit manic and also made a quiche and some cupcakes.... Have an appointment with the lady at the jobcentre tomorrow... my friend has said she's happy to take me in, just hope I don't oversleep again  Will have to make sure I'm out of bed when Chris leaves the house for work.

[cornish]

Glad you got some help smirfy, I was thinking about you but was in no state to say anything



Zaf, well i second what has already been said.



Only 2 more sessions with my psychologist and they haven't approved anymore but she says I really need them and thinks she can do so much more for me if she had more time.
BUT I only see this as an obstacle in the way of me just getting on with my crap life that probably won't last any longer. The 2 weeks for me are like a countdown to freedom to choose what I do with my life.   3 options, easiest is to just go back to ignoring the world and suffer, then there's the ending of it all, but by far the hardest option is to continue with treatment if its approved and then possibly go to hospital for appointments that I have desperately needed for a long time now.

[Munchroom]

*shoots both hands up in the air by way of voting for option 3*

Cornish - we all understand it will be incredibly hard for you to do, but it IS do-able and you know we will all support you as best we can  &*(

[cornish]

Hope you feel better soon Stevie  - Lots of rest and hot drinks!!

Why do you feel tearful Alstare? Anything in particular?


I'm feeling a bit restless  Have felt quite low today and ashamedly couldn't resist slipping back into self harm 
Managed to cook something for dinner that I promised Chris yesterday and I also ate some - which is a positive. Then got a bit manic and also made a quiche and some cupcakes.... Have an appointment with the lady at the jobcentre tomorrow... my friend has said she's happy to take me in, just hope I don't oversleep again  Will have to make sure I'm out of bed when Chris leaves the house for work.

sorry my dear, i didn't notice this, it must have been posted just before mine.

 *(*  have an ear lick hug     not really sure what to say but u know i care n stuff  &*(   im just a bit out of it and im about to pass out from my meds so im not really in much state to talk proper

*shoots both hands up in the air by way of voting for option 3*

Cornish - we all understand it will be incredibly hard for you to do, but it IS do-able and you know we will all support you as best we can  &*(

2 hands up is cheating your vote is rejected 

im just taking each day at a time at the moment, dreading each one with no idea if im going to make it to the end of the month, there's no way im breaking a promise but im having thoughts that i really shouldn't be listening to and keep making very detailed plans for 2 weeks time 

[Munchroom]

*shoots both hands up in the air by way of voting for option 3*

Cornish - we all understand it will be incredibly hard for you to do, but it IS do-able and you know we will all support you as best we can  &*(

2 hands up is cheating your vote is rejected 

im just taking each day at a time at the moment, dreading each one with no idea if im going to make it to the end of the month, there's no way im breaking a promise but im having thoughts that i really shouldn't be listening to and keep making very detailed plans for 2 weeks time 

Thankyou for your bit above that ^  :)

*Puts one hand in the air at a time, repeatedly* 

Just keep taking it one day at a time... you are doing so well, even if you can't see it in yourself  *(*

[cornish]

*shoots both hands up in the air by way of voting for option 3*

Cornish - we all understand it will be incredibly hard for you to do, but it IS do-able and you know we will all support you as best we can  &*(

2 hands up is cheating your vote is rejected 

im just taking each day at a time at the moment, dreading each one with no idea if im going to make it to the end of the month, there's no way im breaking a promise but im having thoughts that i really shouldn't be listening to and keep making very detailed plans for 2 weeks time 

Thankyou for your bit above that ^  :)

*Puts one hand in the air at a time, repeatedly* 

Just keep taking it one day at a time... you are doing so well, even if you can't see it in yourself  *(*

thats ok, sorry its a bit crappy but i was sure u would know what i meant :)

still cheating

trying but it seems to get harder everyday

[Munchroom]

*Holds one hand permenantly in the air* (I will change it to the other one after 24 hours and so on...  )


Don't think about tomorrow, dont think about next week, concentrate on right now  :) xx

[cornish]

     only the initial vote is counted so put your hand down :)

ok right now im fighting tranquilersers and the seroquel that also sends me to sleep.   dont wanna sleep, if i dont sleep then its not tomorrow

[Alstare1974]

Ok so I vote the same as munch.

[Got]

I vote the same

[Zaf]

its a bit late but I vote the same too :)

[Zaf]

hmm, weird today,  part of me wants to get things done, really sorted out and I'm a bit irritible but part of me feels tired and a bit weepy.  Work that one out!





Its afternoon now and I feel tired but calm and fairly satisfied with what I've done today at work but I'd like to find more ways of getting more time for me but I know I wont achieve that all in one go.  The aromatherapy seems to be making inroads into my insomnia which is great so hopefully things are on the up :)