How are you feeling today?

[Alstare1974]

Well I feel the same as you to be honest. I'm reassured that people do get better but I only know sick people at tge minute. You're up late?

[smirfy21]

thanks for your comments everyone I do really appreciate it and im sorry if I come over as ungrateful Im really not. lets hope that we can all start a fresh and look back on this period in our lives and ask ourselves what it was all about, but at the moment I just can't see it happening.
up late doing uni work so will probably pop in and out over the next couple of hours.
smirfy

[danbob]

not at all sleepy

i hate these long nights.... lets my mind churn over bad thoughts :/

[Alstare1974]

not at all sleepy

i hate these long nights.... lets my mind churn over bad thoughts :/

Yeah I hate night time too :-(

Try not to work too hard smirfy.

[danbob]

not at all sleepy

i hate these long nights.... lets my mind churn over bad thoughts :/

Yeah I hate night time too :-(

Try not to work too hard smirfy.

and i have to get up early too :/

gonna be a tired danny tomorrow

[Zaf]

Sorry to hear everyone is feeling so bad

After a week of apparently going backwards I feel a tiny bit more positive this morning

I know its time to grasp this with both hands and make the most of it, I need to get out into the woods but the agorophobia has prevented me going since this first hit so I am determined I will go this weekend (despite part of me saying I'm too tired and its too much bother) I'll try to remember to take the point and click camera to post some pictures if I manage to get there :)

[Munchroom]

Zaf, I am so pleased you are feeling a bit brighter this-morning  :) It would be really good if you could get out into the woods, but please remember, don't overdo it!! Please don't forget to focus on you! As Lol says, you give so much advice and support to others, I worry that you are perhaps not taking enough support for yourself  &*(

Smirfy - remember, when we are 'ok' is so hard to envisage and remember what its like to be at rock bottom - and when we are at rock bottom, its so hard to envisage and remember what it is like to feel 'ok'. You will get through this and you won't end up rocking backwards and forwards in a psychiatric ward! You took such a massive step in going to uni that I feel it is the typical thing of when you slow down a little, your mind and body goes 'WTF?!  ' resulting in really low periods.

I hope today is a brighter day for everyone! (It certainly seems to be weather-wise!)

Lol and Cornish, how are you??

xxx

[Zaf]

Thanks munchroom,  I wont do much, just a quiet wander amongst the trees, they always make me feel peaceful and happy :)

How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

Its amazing how nature can have that effect  :)

Um.... tired and a bit apprehensive. I have had a relatively busy week already and today I need to decorate my house for the party, make cakes, make a quiche and a pumpkin rissotto and then tomorrow I have this Faerie Fayre in the morning, then my sister, her boyfriend and her son are coming down from Chelt, then of course its the party!! And then Sunday I know I'm gonna wake up to a few hungover people in my house!..... Looking forward to a lie-in on Monday and hoping I don't crash before then!!

xxx

[Zaf]

It sounds as though youve got it all planned well, so I'm sure it'll be a great success :)

[Munchroom]

Thanks Zaf  :) xx

[Zaf]

I still have that slight spark of improvement I had this morning, its only very tiny but at least its there :)

I can feel the depressed part of me trying to snuff it out ("do you really want to go to the woods tomorrow, wouldnt it be easier to hibernate and not do anything") the well part of me is saying ("I need to hold onto this improvement however tiny and nurture it, going to the woods will help the wee spark grow so b%#€€$r off depressed feelings and i'm jolly well going go tomorrow"), I can feel a fight coming on between the two sides so I hope I can hold on and get out there......

[Got]

i hope you win X

[Zaf]

Thanks Stevie,  I really need to get out into nature again,  if not the woods at least up the lane for a mile or two :)

[Got]

Yes, I do think that would be really helpful, I think you should do it