I'm feeling really good today, which I hope helps others feel a little better themselves :) I've been listening to some music from when I was a kid and carefree and remembering some good times. I find it helps a lot to remember the times when I the biggest thing I had to worry about was whether some girl liked me or not or where I would sleep at a house party. I find it helps to remember that there was a time when I was happy and didn't let anything get to me. I was that way once and I can be again, this is the middle of the story, where things get hard. I'm going through the biggest battle of my life, but I have to hit the bottom before I can get out of this hole. One day I can reclaim everything that depression has taken away from me. So long as I hold onto and remind myself of the way I was any way I can, that person remains alive, and some day I will be him again. I don't believe in a god, but this is still my ultimate test, if I can make it through this then I can go back to being who I was, and appreciate it all the more knowing I fought for it and won. After all, he who conquers others is mighty, he who conquers himself is almighty. I know that I can be happy, I have been before. It's not a journey into the unknown, it's a journey home.
To those who believe in a god, I hope he/she sees you through and brings you a day where you can feel optimism as I have today. I'm sure he/she knows you deserve it after all you've been through.
God or not, I feel today like there is a way home for everyone and I'm grateful I feel this way today. I hope this helps everyone feel a little better and know that whether you believe in a god or not, there is hope, there can be good days.
Much love everyone.
