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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1305 on: October 26, 2011, 03:07:22 PM »
Scared. I feel scared and shaky. I feel like I need to do a Jack Bauer on the evil that is Depression.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1306 on: October 26, 2011, 03:23:08 PM »

I'm sorry to keep posting but there is something wrong and I am sure this isn't normal. I have just completely broken down and am crying and feel like smashing my own head in. I simpy cannot cope with this horrible situation I am in anymore. I just need forgiveness and understanding but I am being punished for havining a depressive episode. I know I have behaved badly, but it isnt the person I am. I cant deal with this frustration and I have become incapable of coping anymore...it has destroyed me completly and yet I am being told I am evil and a bad person. Ive really had enough of this now, but I cannot let it go....so it will keep on eating at me and eating at me and making me more ad more ill. 

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1307 on: October 26, 2011, 03:50:11 PM »
there is never any need to apologise for posting danbob, if you feel that bad you need to go to see your GP or even phone the samaritans,  and of course those of us on line will help all we can  &*(
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1308 on: October 26, 2011, 05:41:32 PM »
Hi Alstare
Are you still suffering, my heart goes out to you, if it helps at all I feel bright at the moment, have felt better for a few days ! - so there is hope. Hang on in there. Is there anything you have to look forward to?
Thinking of you and sending hugs.  &*(Love Di

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1309 on: October 26, 2011, 05:47:44 PM »
Sorry Stevie, that isn't right, you shouldn't be punished, that is awful! If you are alone it is so easy to get worse, well if you are like me anyway, I mull over things over and over and it really does your head in! All the different emotions, I feel you do need someone really understanding to talk your feelings through with, and you need time for your body/mind to heal. Is there anyone you can trust? Its not easy I know.
Don't worry about posting, it is better to get your feelings out.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1310 on: October 26, 2011, 05:51:13 PM »
Hi Kareng
How are you now, are you still feeling shaky?
Hope things are improving for you
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1311 on: October 26, 2011, 05:53:10 PM »
Sorry you are feeling grim. Hope you are starting to feel better now Zaf,
Thinking of you
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1312 on: October 26, 2011, 05:53:52 PM »
How are you Cornish, hoping you are ok and thinking of you
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1313 on: October 26, 2011, 05:55:32 PM »
How are you doing Lol ? Are you feeling any better - Hope so XXXX
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1314 on: October 26, 2011, 05:55:55 PM »
Sick to death of being me and suffering all the friggin time, I have simply had enough. GP doesn't help, Medication doesn't help, Psychiatrist doesn't help, changing my life style and exercise doesn't help so what is left? Will somebody please tell me what is friggin left to try?

I come on hear and everybody is really great which makes me feel all the more guilty when I sink back into a dark depression and need to just vent.
what is left for me
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1315 on: October 26, 2011, 06:02:02 PM »
Hi Smirfy

I have tried all that too ----exercising, health eating,socialising, etc etc etc, but ---- I have just had the AD's upped - well 3 weeks ago and have felt better for a few days.
Don't feel guilty, after saying that I feel a bit guilty 'cause I am well at the moment.
Can you find anything to do that will take your mind off things. I know that is hard 'cause when you are feeling like you are now, you do not want to do ANYTHING as it is too hard to even move sometimes.
If it helps I can only say that I am really hoping that you get the help you need and start to feel brighter.
Thinking of you and sending Hugs
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1316 on: October 26, 2011, 06:03:08 PM »
PS Smirfy
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1317 on: October 26, 2011, 08:55:04 PM »
Hi all,

Just wanted to say that since joining this forum I have been feeling a little more positive about things, I think helps to know that I am not alone so thank you. Maybe I am just having a good couple of days, I dunno but I am going to try to make the most of it while it lasts, I'm sure things will go back down hill eventually :(.

I think it could be because I am looking forward to my friend coming back from his holiday (we used to date each other when I was 17 (he was 18), had a happy relationship with him for 4 years, he was my 1st love then I fell out of love with him (not entirely sure why - young and silly maybe, thought grass was greener)). He has always been there for me and is great when I am feeling at rock bottom, somehow he seems to manage lift me up out of the darkness when I see him. Anyway, i have been thinking about him lately and I have been missing him.....maybe I didn't actually fall out of love with him  :-\ ???

I feel a bit guilty as u all seem to be having such a hard time of it at the mo and I hope I haven't offended anyone by writing this, I am just enjoying my up time and just wanted to share it :)

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1318 on: October 26, 2011, 08:56:52 PM »
Stevie. You are going through a very difficult time. You have done some things that you regret and that you felt you were driven to doing by a force that was stronger than your healthy self. You are right. You were so consumed by the persuasions of depression that they manifested in colours and actions that you wouldn't, didn't, and don't approve of. This is incredibly difficult to come to terms with for you and for your girlfriend.

Can you say how you felt when you physically handled her? This was very wrong, as you know. What emotions were going on? There can't be excuses for physical overpowering mate, but, there can be explanations. The only thing we can ask for is that some one hears an explanation and considers it kindly and with an open mind.

It may be, that your action was SO utterly unlike you that your girlfriend simply could not believe her eyes and had a very frightened reaction through sheer unexpectedness. We can see how she might. I suspect, from your posts, that you also were surprised with yourself and don't actually blame her for her reaction? you are as appalled by yourself as she is in you?

If in your heart you are benevolant and gentle then you must first forgive yourself and come to terms with your actions. Consider talking about this here because that is a very difficult thing to do - you are your own worst enemy and disciplinarian. You must ask your girlfriend to consider who she knows you to be and ask for her forgiveness. She might be able to forgive you but she may not be able to come back, but hopefully it will give you some foundation to build a better understanding of yourself, come to terms with what has happened and tie up these loose ends and move on.

You made a mistake. It had consequences. But you can find a way to forgive yourself through understanding and find a way to move forward.

I feel for you mate. Keep holding on, we're here for you.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #1319 on: October 26, 2011, 09:10:45 PM »
im officially in hell and im dragging everyone around me in, didn't go to my gp but asked my mum to call him and explain and have my prescription picked up for me.


Sick to death of being me and suffering all the friggin time, I have simply had enough. GP doesn't help, Medication doesn't help, Psychiatrist doesn't help, changing my life style and exercise doesn't help so what is left? Will somebody please tell me what is friggin left to try?

I come on hear and everybody is really great which makes me feel all the more guilty when I sink back into a dark depression and need to just vent.
what is left for me
smirfy "£$

oh im far from great, so no need to feel guilty, hope that helps  ::)


far more importantly i know how you feel, well i did, until i found my psychologist, she is wonderful, i never thought a person could help so much. even though ive gone WAY down hill recently.
as for meds, im very resistant to them, i start one and slowly go up to dangerious dosages and then have to ween off them as they stop working and then go onto something else, not found a solution to that one yet  :(
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