Cazzy, welcome :) and well done! You should be so proud of yourself and it sounds like your son (who, I also imagined being a toddler!
) is a fantastic person to support and encourage you.
Going back to earlier posts - I cannot remember the last time I woke up refreshed from sleep... I've given up explaining my dreams to Chris because he sits there like:
and then gets a bit lost as they get weirder and weirder.... I think unfortunately its a side effect from medication coupled with the fact that we all have so much going on in our minds. If
only they could make a anti-depressant with zero side effects... that would be AMAZING
Mind you, would possibly not work very well....
Well - I have my Halloween party on Saturday night (eeeek!) I have around 25 people coming and in the daytime I am going to a Faerie Fayre locally... why on earth would I want to do things by halves?!?! I made a list today of what I have to do by Friday in order to be ready and its a fair amount! I've made a big Chilli today and am going to put it in the freezer so I know that is
done - dont have to worry about that :) but things like cupcakes and little party food things i need to make on Friday really.... Next week, I plan to not do much at all. I haven't got any shifts booked in (as yet!) so... just look forward to being pretty lazy after a bit of a manic week this week.
I am now having the worries though.... What if people that have said they are coming, dont come? What if I have that horrible sudden feeling of being very low during the party? What if I'm not a good hostess? What if I have missed something hugely vital to good party throwing? What if people go home thinking its the worst party they have ever been to??
Short term though.... tomorrow I have the doctors and I need to talk to him about my meds and coming off of this blasted Venlafaxine and the side effects of the Trazadone (eczema!
) and then I'm meeting my friend over the fields with her children and my dogs :) Then in the afternoon, I'm going into town with a friend of mine who is then meeting Peter at the cinema.... so my friend is going to put me on the train and then its just a short walk from the train station to my house at the other end.... not really looking forward to that part of the day!! I think I'll have to have something nice lined up for tomorrow evening to be able to focus on thinking about whilst I'm on the train....
Even shorter term... The Gadget Show is on in the background. My god... there is really something about Suzy Perry that
really wimds me up! *shakes fist* Silly woman....
xxx
