How are you feeling today?

[Alstare1974]

How are you Cornish?

[cornish]

more scared and anxious than normal, going WAY above the "safe" dosage of sertralin and there adding quetiapine and im going to build up to the highest "safe" dosage of that within a week or 2 then possibly higher.
gotta love building up a tolerance to meds and being very treatment resistant due to the many other factors caused by the bloody !$%"£$ who crashed into me.

also i keep "forgetting" all of my physical stuff that i need to tell them but i just ignore it and want to just get out of there as soon as i can

[Zaf]

Its bound to be worrying you Alstare, it would be worrying anyone to be in trouble with the police but for someone with depression worries get magnified tenfold.  It may be something serious but try to keep in the present if you can, you need to work towards getting well  (which you can do) then tackle getting a job once you are mentally able to cope with work.

[Alstare1974]

Thanks Zaf. I'm worried about people judging me.

[Alstare1974]

I'd be lost without you guys.

[danbob]

im feeling that iv no one to turn to...... not felt this low in a while to be honest..... logged on to a message that in my previous posts i might have sweared..... if anyone was offended then i apologose.....


depression is not pretty i make no attempts to dress it as being a "pretty" desease, i will address my feelings how i want to, if how i address my feelings is a problem for the establishment they should email me and barr me from these forums


my email is dannyb210@gmail.com

to all the lovely people i have met on here, i wish you all the best :)

[danbob]

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[Pete]

Ahh swear all you like mate , i do. There is an inbuilt censoring mod on the forum and any words that slip through can simply be added to it if needs be so i wouldnt be concerned. How has your day been? Mines been pretty &$%+e but better than some have been so i suppose thats positive eh lol

As someone who also runs a forum i do understand the issues with language control in a public place but in my view there is a huge difference between using swear words as a means of description within the realms of the depression and using foul language directed at another. The latter is unacceptable in any manner but the former within the realms of this type of forum should be accepted as par and any unwanted words added to the censor list to allow the poster to type exactly what they feel and vent the frustration inside here rather on themselves or another.

Just my twopenneth lol

[danbob]

i just find it hard to express how i feel sometimes that is all........ i think i have over reacted to this....... im not feeling great anyway and its an easy thing to justify my feelings...... sorry

[Pete]

Ahh now you really have done something far worse than swear Dan. You said the S word. Apparently your not supposed to say sorry here cuz as we're all in the same boat there is no need to ever apologise we just take things as they come and try not to allow them to bother us.

This is a forum, a place for you , me, everyone to feel we can say what we need to say. A place free from judgement, free from burden and simply put a haven in any shape you need it to be.

Have you got a journal yet? If not go and start one and just write whatever you need to. It really does release your inner hurt and helps mate.

[Zaf]

How are you feeling today cornish?

Alstare, worrying about being judged is one of the nasty things that comes with depression even if you've never worried about it in the past, it can be horribly debilitating in a lot of ways and I find it very difficult to conquer, now I'm beginning to recover it is easier to tell myself it doesnt matter or I'm being silly or to worry about it later if it becomes necessary so hopefully once you begin to recover it will be easier to overcome these feelings.

I dont think there is an inbuilt censor for swear words Pete but I think in the rules it does ask people not to swear, I know its a way of expressing how we feel and sometimes feels necessary and at the moment I think all of us are OK with the occasional naughty word but if at all possible its better if we can use #%*€¥$ for stronger swear words just in case someone joins that is offended or possibly a minor reads the posts.

Danbob, no one wants to ban you from the forum, we appreciate your help and want to support you when you are down, I hope you are feeling better today.



I actually slept properly for a whole six and a half hours and then another two of slightly disturbed sleep, cant say I feel much less tired atm but hopefully my secret weapon will keep working and eventually I'll stop feeling so tired :)

[Zaf]

I've just dissolved into tears, I've obviously upset someone on here for doing my job as moderator and that was the last thing I wanted so now I feel terrible, sorry all

[cornish]

Aww zaf.   Huge hugs to you

I think you will always have the occasional slip with swearing, I have a few times as I've been worked up but once I notice it I use the edit or modify (or what ever it's called) feature. And censor my self

I think the only way to put across my feeling is by using  "£". AGAIN
Also I'm getting dosage increase side effects already and as I'm well above the safe dosage I'm worried   got to go and get my other meds later not looking foward to starting them either
Dunno if it's a side effect but my glands in my neck are very swolen, there even noticeable with my beard . There really painfull and it's agony to swallow or talk

[Zaf]

Thanks cornish :)

I think we all have from time to time and its definitely best to do  "£" or #@%&* or something similar.

Its possible your swollen glands are a cold coming on, when do you go back to see someone at the medical team so you can voice your concerns about the side effects etc?

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danbob, I am not going going to ban you just because of the way you let off steam.  It would have to be something serious for me to do that.

A note to everybody - the forums are open to the public so I am respectfully asking that nobody swears as you don't know when a child may come across the forums and read.  I would also like to take this time to thank everybody for generally being respectful of each other.