How are you feeling today?

[woozywoo]

Good day spent with family, but I always feelw a low afterwwards. I knew it would happen...

Thanx for replying oh daddy. I don't deserve it just because i dont.... I know I can never have it as I am unloveable and getting older and therefore me wanting to be happy with someone who adores me and a family is a reality that will never haopen.

[Michael Frankum]

Hi Woozy.  +-_ I think that it is one of the common themes when we're feeling down that we all feel as if we're unloveable, and don't deserve happiness of any sort. Pretty well everybody here takes a lot of effort to tell everybody else that they're wrong, but can never accept the same about themselves. You are a good, caring person, and you deserve and can find the same happiness as everyone here. It's never easy, but in the non-depressed world it's never easy either. It just seems that way because each of us is tortured by this damned illness, and that always makes happiness seem a little further away. Depression lies to us! You are not unloveable. Do you bite the heads of chickens? Do you loosen the nuts on the wheels of school buses? You are a normal human being going through some very troubled times. You need help, understanding and the chance to meet someone who will adore you. There are many marriages that don't work out, and it's not all because of depression. There are marriages that do work, even when one or more of the partners is suffering from depression. Everyone deserves and can find love.  %^%



Except me - I'm a monster!

[hippychick49]

Optimistic. I haven't felt optimistic for such a long time that it feels very alien.

[stewart]

Is that the fury fluffy cute alien or the ones with gnashing teeth and a passion for face hugging?  "!+

[Catbrian]

Hippy I can identify with that.  Recently I have been feeling better than I have in years, so many things changing for the good.  However, regularly, I get this awful feeling that something isn't quite right.  What it is, I'm so used toi living and breathing depression and all its negativity.  Now I get some relief, I find the whole experience completely alien at times.

[Leo]

Had a really busy day today so feeling psychically tired, but not even thought about my group session today - not had time!

[Ohdaddy]

Got turned down for yet another job today which, combined with a severe case of man flu got me down. Then I got a call to ask whether I could do some 1:1 tutoring 15 hours a week starting very soon.  Felt slightly better after that.   Now I'm worried about doing the work!

[Catbrian]

What sort of tutoring?  I'm remember you saying you were a teacher.... you'll be fine, but it is only natural to feel anxious.  This is the start of a new beginning!!  Good luck

[Ohdaddy]

Thanks Catb - just waiting for when, where exactly and who.  Next week sometime - all I know.  Gets some money coming in.  Just nursing a nasty chest infection at the moment - can feel steroids just working. They can make me as high as a kite if I'm not careful.

Woozy - you OK?

[Catbrian]

I am feeling exhausted. time for bed

[dave208]

Hi everyone hope all is well. Odd start to the new year quite a few ups and downs, lots of illness in the family Friday just gone my youngest who has only just got over a bout of sickness started to be sick again with a temperature the usual winter bugs that everyone seems to pick up. My eldest went to see a psychiatrist a few months ago with ongoing issues with anger, depression and aspergers the psychiatrist attached to CAMHS put the blame down to the internet.  After complaining we had another appointment and to cut a long story short she listened and prescribed him medication initially for sleeping and if required medication for his other issues which we will ask for,  touch wood his sleeping is better I’m sure this will help his progress as it has been noticed he is not doing too well at School.

What with my family’s health issues and my own I have been very up and down over the past few weeks at one point I was extremely low losing my temper at the drop of a hat and feeling very withdrawn and wanting to be left alone at work and at home I was feeling that I was taking steps back in my treatment back prior to when I first approached my doctor about my issues.  What possibly could be compounding the problem I have given up alcohol (albeit 3 weeks ago I did drink three cans of beer left over from Christmas and New Year) but haven’t touched a drop since. I work in the public sector and am having increasing work load and managing at the moment but the consensus at work the work load is only going to get greater and greater this is causing me a certain amount of stress but coping at the moment I have an appointment with my doctor on the 19th Feb and wish my wife to attend so she can express how she feels about my situation and treatment. If I am still up and down between now and the 19th I may request a review of my medication I’m currently taking 40mg of Citalopram a day. If there is one thing I want this year is for the health of the family to be much better which I’m sure will lead to a happier atmosphere. Sorry If I have rambled on a bit but It’s something I needed to get off my chest.

[Leo]

Despondent.

[Catbrian]

Dave.... I think it sounds a good move to take your wife to your GP appointment, sometimes it helps the Doc to hear someone else's take on things.  I hope that goes well and perhaps a change of meds might be what you need, although that comes with a whole new set of difficulties, it might not be the best way forward.   It's good to talk things over with the GP.  Good luck

[stewart]

Ugh

[Catbrian]

That bad Stewart?