How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

Alstare I understand that you are saying you want it all to stop now. You've had enough and it isn't about being selfish it's about the torture stopping.

I'm sad that that's how you feel. But it is how you feel. You are also sad that it's how you feel.

I remember some posts a little while back where you describe having a lighter, less burdensome day. I think you had slept better and had done something during the day instead of sleeping and it had made you feel a little less inhuman. It is so sad that you don't feel like this now. But you don't feel like this at the moment. I wonder if you can remember how that day felt and remember the feeling of feeling a little better and perhaps what you did that created that temporary change. I'm glad that you are capable of having a change on some days. That day must have felt like such a relief.

Tell me how you are feelig today. It is a tragedy that your life feels like this now. You were happy once. It is frustrating that you are not now and it is destroying you. You are afraid that this is it now for the rest of your life.

[Munchroom]

You have achieved a lot this-morning Zaf - hope you get a good rest  :)

Cornish - Lols idea does sound like a very good one  :) I think structure to your weekend would be a good idea if possible?

Lol - how are you feeling this-morning??

xx

[Lol]

Hi Munchroom I'm feeling ok, little nervous as I'm going to tell a friend today what's been going on as he knows NOTHING. I've just spoken to him on the phone and he is AMAZED and can't believe the situation or that I've not told him before now! It's going to be really difficult going through it all again, but it would feel good to let some one know who wont judge. I'm still dreading it through. Don't really know why it's a strange feeling. spoze feel a bit bad for not having told him before now but I haven't felt strong enough to if truth be told.

[danbob]

Restlessness is horrible... at least you are being productive with it though Zaf - think how much of a relief it will be once all that ironing is done!! :) And you've got onto Facebook?  :)

I'm feeling a bit like I want to do something today - go out and have a bracing walk in the fresh air - I love it now that its really feeling quite autumnal  :) Will have to wait until Chris gets home from work though and he did mention something about doing the brakes on the car... so bracing walk might have to wait until tomorrow!!

Feeling quite fizzy  But yesterday was my day 'off' the medication, so have just taken one now... hopefully that will be enough and I won't get to the point I did the other day....

Cornish, I am around most of the weekend - you know where I am if you need anything.
Danbob... Its a great feeing when we can take on the world!! But please try to restrain yourself a little!!  I'm sure you don't need reminding, but the minute you feel tired STOP! Don't get overtired.... I know its so difficult and there is a very fine line in-between feeling a little tired and then being overtired and manic but please don't wear yourself out!
Lol and Depina - how are you both today?

xxxx

the fizzing goes away with time, when you stop them completely they last bout 9 days but each day the fizzes get less overpowering

you will feel the benefit when your off them tho, venlafaxine are just awful tablets xx

[Zaf]

been asleep for several hours,  dont feel quite so restless thankfully,  I really must have needed that sleep :)

[Alstare1974]

Feel quite low and a bit numb.

[Zaf]

I think its possibly a reaction to how awful you felt before, the emotion has drained you totally

[Lol]

Feel quite low and a bit numb.

Alstare you are feeling low and numb. That's awful I'm disappointed that you feel that way when you have been capable of improvement recently, however brief. It is normal for depression to peak and trough, I'm glad that through what has felt like one long trough you have had a slight peak a couple of weeks ago. This is such an improvement as there seemed to be no peaks before. I hope the next peak you feel soon lasts for longer and comes quickly. Remember to remember how it feels when it comes, and try to enjoy it and embrace it as much as you can. Do I remember you saying that you were starting some work/activity next week? Tell me about this, sounds good.  :)

[Zaf]

I shouldnt have let myself sleep this afternoon, that horrible restless feeling has returned and I know I'm not going to get to sleep at all tonight

[danbob]

I shouldnt have let myself sleep this afternoon, that horrible restless feeling has returned and I know I'm not going to get to sleep at all tonight

im wired.... no sleep for me.... best thing about BPD

[cornish]

dont think ive slept since friday night and that was probably only a few hours

[Zaf]

I got about 4 hours, now back to that restless feeling again


Added:


fed the horses as soon as it got light, fed the dogs, its a beautiful day so I've got some washing on and now going outside to do the weekly horsey chores, had a frost this morning so I'm probably a bit late to pick the pumpkins and squash but I'll get them indoors and hope they'll keep for a few weeks

Thinking of you all this morning as usual xx

[Zaf]

*@#*%#*   Ive had an allergic reaction to something in the garden and my arm is driving me mad itching,  aarrgghhhhh, even antisan wont help any suggestions please?  atm I'm wrapping it with a cold flannel till the cold goes away, but its not helping much.

[cornish]

Try and get some anti histamines in you and wash it with salt water, its best not to cover the area as it can trap allergens and cause more irritation

[cornish]

not particularly copeing very well but the psycholigist said if i had a day off try watching a film with some pop corn mmmm :)    hmm being very jumpy and on edge and makeing pop corn was intresting