How are you feeling today?

[Martin]

Thank you Shaz.

[Wallow]

I wish I was dead. I dont think i can do this for much longer

[Martin]

Wallow please talk to someone NOW.
Phone someone; friend, family; anyone.
Don't be alone with such thoughts - you CAN get through this. As difficult as it all seems and as "pointless" as it all looks; please get someone to listen.

[Sweetpea]

Wallow I agree you need to contact someone, you should not be alone feeling this way  %^%.

S x x x x

[Wallow]

Thank you. Just tried to talk to my husband & had an almighty row. Think he is finding all this a bit much too. Am going to watch tv then go to bed & pray tomorrow is better.

[Martin]

It makes me sad that you tried to talk but ended up falling out.

Have you never had such discussions with your husband?
I know it can be very hard to find someone who will put up with the dark days and understand.
Perhaps it was all too much on one go for him?
Does he know how you suffer?
Is he normally supportive?

[Catbrian]

I agree with blue eyes, perhaps it's just a lot for him to take in at the moment; maybe just caught him at a bad moment.  Hopefully things will feel better tomorrow.

I think sometimes in relationships, when we're looking for support during depression, they are also struggling to understand and it can often get a little muddled.  If he's having problems understanding, perhaps a good and short article for him to read on the net might help.

Hope you have a decent sleep. 

[Martin]

I think sometimes in relationships, when we're looking for support during depression, they are also struggling to understand and it can often get a little muddled.  If he's having problems understanding, perhaps a good and short article for him to read on the net might help.

Great advice. The first time I completed a 'depression scoring form' from the doctors I let my wife see what I had written.
I think that made a huge difference to her understanding about me and the way my world looks to me.

[Ohdaddy]

I have had no support from my wife - just criticism and ridicule. She does not do empathy and sympathy any more for me - looking forward to leaving her in next few months. 

If you asked me a few years ago about depression, I may have been sympathetic but would be ignorant of its nature and effects. I thought you had to be depressed about something, not realizing that my own pessimism and low self esteem was caused by this very illness. 

I'm down about lack of paid work today. Anyone got any advice?  Graduate, teacher, handyman??

[Buttercup]

OhDaddy, what was your previous job?

[Catbrian]

Funny you should mention ignorance over depression.  I was just thinking today that I've never actually sat down and read any info on the illness.  All my experience and understanding comes mainly from first hand experience

Have you tried advertising in local shops for Handy Man?  Reasonable rates for all sorts of odd jobs usually sells well.  Why aren't you in teaching?  That would suit when you & the kid's future arrangements

[Stacey]

Was having my first good day since reducing my Fluoxetine to flush it out of my system but I had a doctors appointment today and have now started citalopram.

Since taking my first tablet a few hours ago I have felt 'funny' I think anxiety has taken over and I can't stop fidgeting and tapping. xx

[Ohdaddy]

OhDaddy, what was your previous job?

I used to be a university researcher but in a specialized area (there are only a few places in the UK where I could work, none of them round here).  I re-trained as a teacher but the job is very stressful, I 'm not sure it's really for me either. I've been doing supply work but it has been drying up around here.  I've been turned down for shop work, admin jobs etc and am getting fed up and worried about it.  I'd like to teach adults, but after countless applications and only 1 interview and no offers I'm thinking that I am barking up the wrong tree.

[Ohdaddy]

Funny you should mention ignorance over depression.  I was just thinking today that I've never actually sat down and read any info on the illness.  All my experience and understanding comes mainly from first hand experience

Have you tried advertising in local shops for Handy Man?  Reasonable rates for all sorts of odd jobs usually sells well.  Why aren't you in teaching?  That would suit when you & the kid's future arrangements

I have thought about this - and it's flexible work too.  I may leave it until I have moved to my own home and try a bit of advertising. A friend of mine makes a living doing just this but more gardening and outside work.  Bit of a waste though in some ways - i have 2 degrees!!

[Ohdaddy]

Was having my first good day since reducing my Fluoxetine to flush it out of my system but I had a doctors appointment today and have now started citalopram.

Since taking my first tablet a few hours ago I have felt 'funny' I think anxiety has taken over and I can't stop fidgeting and tapping. xx

I felt odd for the first few weeks on fluoxatine. Its just a side effect. Try and get some sleep if you can or distract yourself somehow. I know its a little puerile but I get immersed in a computer game, or a film or book. I painted the kitchen when I needed something to do. Different things work for different people. Hope you feel better. +-_ +-_