How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

I have just had our cat vaccinated and he gets very lethargic and out of sorts (off his food which is an absolute tragedy for him!!!!!) for 24 hours after it. so we are having a night in together, some serious knee time, telly and beer to make him (....eherm) feel better.  ^&^ Bless him

Shame you'll have to drink his share of the beer

I know, it's difficult.............(burp)  $%$

[Alstare1974]

sleep hygene?

Only sleeping at night and not all day.

[Zaf]

Are they giving you some advice how to do that?

[Zaf]

I have just had our cat vaccinated and he gets very lethargic and out of sorts (off his food which is an absolute tragedy for him!!!!!) for 24 hours after it. so we are having a night in together, some serious knee time, telly and beer to make him (....eherm) feel better.  ^&^ Bless him

Shame you'll have to drink his share of the beer

I know, it's difficult.............(burp)  $%$

Do you mean they want to get your sleep patterns to get back to normal without medication?   Do they have a plan how to do that?

[Alstare1974]

Are they giving you some advice how to do that?

Nope. Just that I shouldn't sleep in the day. Which is easy to say when you can't sleep until 3am and feel like crap all next day. I didn't actually get up today until 6pm. Oh well starting half days back at work from Monday.

[Zaf]

Hopefully the half days will kick start you sleeping at night rather than during the day, my sleep patterns are all over the place atm and was thinking of asking the doc to prescribe me something, in the past Night Nurse has done the trick but I'm not sure if I should take any with my ADs

[cornish]

Cornish it seems that you are saying that it is very difficult for you to be concentrating inwardly and would rather have the detachment of treating it like an external job that you are completing by request?

yeah exactly

Again im feeling very anxious and scared as ive stupidly taken the weekend off again, this is againts the advice of 3 diffrent people on the mental health team. i know its not going to help me and will do more damage than good but i just thought i will do it as it IS progress, but its not the logical part of me knows that but like lol explained im just doing it and treating it as a job, i will do it, i have to do it and i will get on with it quickly, partly to just get it over with again and be left to just work all the time again

[Alstare1974]

It's about 2am and I'm crying and shaking. Just want to die. Why don't people understand I can't take much more of this and that they're selfish to want me to stay not the other way round. I just want some peace.

[cornish]

i know exactly how you feel

feeling strange, cant sleep and now i feel numb

[Zaf]

I'll be around all weekend guys if you need to chat or any support

 probably the whole weekend was a bit much cornish, dare I suggest just one day next time?

Alstare, have you told your medical team how bad things are?  Its not selfish to think what you do, nor is it selfish for people to want you to stay, I've been at that point many times and despite still getting depressive episodes I am absolutely certain I'm past wanting to take that final solution.  My friend from another forum who committed suicide was buried yesterday and I cant help feeling a huge sense of loss and sadness that at a point of desperation she chose to end things

[Zaf]

Feeling really weird this morning, tearful and restless,  keep doing a bit of something then a bit of something else,  no idea why  !"!

[danbob]

still not been sleeping too well, but i feel great today :) feel like i could take the world on :) the joys of BPD eh

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Feeling really weird this morning, tearful and restless,  keep doing a bit of something then a bit of something else,  no idea why  !"!

i hate that mood the most zaf...... am i coming am i going???..... at least when im sad im sad and when im happy im happy, no mans land is a pain in the rear   i hope your mood improves over the day so you can enjoy your saturday.

on a completely different note.... come on wales

[Zaf]

I'm attacking the huge heap of ironing thats built up then stopping for a bit to check the forum and facebook,  I just cant settle at one thing at a time,  I know it will pass (it usually does).

Its really cold outside but sunny,  I'm waiting for the Tesco order to come then I might try to get outside for a bit.

Is that the Rugby?

[danbob]

yeah its the semi-final and Wales are playing France, im cheering the boyo's on :)

the weather is the same here, im gonna go for a long walk through the woods when the match is over, its the one thing that probably helps me the most when im down.

are you sure its not the ironing that is doing this to your mood, if i had a massive pile of ironing it would depress the hell out of me ha ha 

[Zaf]

I havent really followed Wales since I was in my late teens,  they were a superb side then with JJ Williams and Gareth Williams,  do they have a chance of beating France?

Its great walking in the woods in the sunshine, not sure if I'll get that far today but at the least I want to get into the big veg plot and pick my pumpkins and squash before we get a frost.

No,  when I'm down I dont even consider the ironing,  its only when I'm feeling this sort of restlessness it gets done,  probably half way through  now :)