How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

I hope you get her OK cornish, I dont know what to suggest

[cornish]

its probably nothing, just me being a paranoid fool.  i had no response so i assume she's working days

i should really go to bed, i know i wont sleep but if i do go i know i will really struggle to get out again

[Zaf]

Why not turn the TV on and see if watching something will get you off to sleep?  It works for me, I 'm watching an old eposode of Taggart and beginning to feel sleepy at last

[Zaf]

He's a 15.3, 9year old, a cob and apparently bombproof as the lady wanted a horse her son could ride. My loan horse was cob mare who I swear stood on your foot on purpose. She had so many issues but I loved her so much. It would be nice to be able to sit in a field with a horse again. Plus I had a weird love for poo picking.

She'll understand, it's worth a try to get hold of her. I hope you manage it. Sorry you're having a bad night 

Cobs do seem to know where your feet are so they can stand on you, hope it works out for you but if not dont give up.

Hmmmm, you could do my poo picking any day, its definitely not my favourite job!

[cornish]

Why not turn the TV on and see if watching something will get you off to sleep?  It works for me, I 'm watching an old eposode of Taggart and beginning to feel sleepy at last

its not really working but im going to turn my iphone off now and try to get some sleep

He's a 15.3, 9year old, a cob and apparently bombproof as the lady wanted a horse her son could ride. My loan horse was cob mare who I swear stood on your foot on purpose. She had so many issues but I loved her so much. It would be nice to be able to sit in a field with a horse again. Plus I had a weird love for poo picking.

She'll understand, it's worth a try to get hold of her. I hope you manage it. Sorry you're having a bad night 

Cobs do seem to know where your feet are so they can stand on you, hope it works out for you but if not dont give up.

Hmmmm, you could do my poo picking any day, its definitely not my favourite job!

i would also happily poo pick for you if you were close by, any type of work is what i live for now so it would be helping me :)

thats the one thing i dont like about horses, had my foot stood on by one,  oh yeah and there teeth, they remind me of people teeth and i get freaked out by them now    oh and the allergies but i do like horses, bloody beautiful creatures, ive always had a love for shire horses and just wish i wasn't soo allergic that i can barely go near one even with a large amount of anti histamines

[Angelina]

If you lived close I would definitely poo pick, I'd happily do it as a job full time if somebody had a field with enough poo in it! I'm seeing the horse on Tuesday, he's currently in a yard half an hour away until he gets moved to one 4 miles away. It'll be my first time driving a proper distance since July, I guess a horse is the best reason for me to start to tackle that issue. I'm now pooping myself about tacking up and riding, I've been doing it for years but I always get scared I'll tack up wrong and hurt the horse 

I hope you get some sleep cornish, and if I win the lottery I'll try to find a way to make your horse allergy go away because shire horses are amazing and you deserve to be able to cuddle one ((((hugs))))

[cornish]

good luck with the horse thing and im sure you will do everything right

if only one of us did win the lottery

still wide awake 

[Zaf]

Two volunteers to poo pick, what a pity you dont live closer

You wont forget Angelina, but if you're worried you might do rehearse it in your head lots of times, that might help

The big heavy horses are awesome, all horses are beautiful :)

[Zaf]

Damn this insomnia tonight, I've arranged to go to south Norfolk for lunch with a group of friends later and wish I hadnt, its going to be a fair bit of driving and I'm going to be really tired, I cant back out as I'm taking a couple of other people and I dont want to let them down

[Angelina]

Got to sleep around 7am, woke up around 8am. Not fun. Searched the internet for any job going, little tricky as employers can be funny about my hair but I can't let go of it right now, it's part of who I am. Sunday mornings are boring when you're too tired to do anything.

[Lol]

Good morning people. I'm sorry I didn't get to look in much last night I was with family who were trying to take my mind off things and being really lovely and it felt rude to keep nipping off to their computer. I was thinking of you all.

Cornish well done for getting through a whole Saturday and night. That must feel really strange. Are you very proud of yourself? I'm proud of you. That is a huge achievement and another thing you can tell yourself you can do! I hope you are feeling better in yourself kidney pain wise and managed to get some sleep. Sometimes when we're tense we hold ourselves differently, could it just be that do you think? If it were kidney related you would probably feel nausious and most likely have a temperature. drink lots of water.

Zaf I'm sorry to hear Maxie has finally gone you must be devastated. I'm glad she's gone to nice people and that it is a bit of a relief for you. I hope you manage to get to your friends without being too tired.

Angelina I'm sorry you didn't have a lot of sleep! You must be exhausted! Don't push yourself too hard on the job search front if you're too tired to do it or it might become such a chore that you can't face it at all. Allow yourse'f a certain amount of time that you're going to do it then give yourself a break.

My family have really picked me up. I was very low. I feel guilty about being a burden to them but it's such a relief to be with people I can relax and feel safe with. I'm so anxious about going home though. Back to 'our' house on my own. I don't want to go home. I'm so sick of this horrific roller coaster.

Lets get some strength together people!! Everybody in a scrum woop woop!!!! come on!! We can do it we can do it.

[Lol]

Alstare I'm sorry you were having a bad day and feeling bored and wishing for your own place. How is your sleep going? You had a couple of better days last week and that is something to be really proud of and give you courage and hope. What are you going to do today?

Depina I hope you are ok. How was your time with your friends? I hope your moods are more constant and things are ok at home.

[cornish]

ive been drinking as much water as possible and i think its helped a little bit, still feel horrific and really exhausted.

[Zaf]

Thans lol, I feel a bit numb aboit Maxie now, it'll get easier and I knw she has gone o a good home :)

I've got to admit I'm very tired now but had a lovely afternoon with my friends (most know about my depression) and some fantatic home cooked indan food,  it wont be long before I go to bed...

Hows it going cornish?  Been thinking of you.

Hope everyone else Is OK :)

[Lol]

Cornish it's Sunday evening!!!!!!!!!!! You've done it!!! Well done!!!!!!!!!!!!