I managed to go out again today, which turned out to be over 5 hours as we had to go to various places. It's hard for me sometimes to be out purely because people look at me. It's my fault, I have very brightly coloured hair. In a way though it helps, I used to think people looked at me funny anyway so at least now I can justify it! It's hard when random people come up to me though to talk about it. I spent money while out, too much money. But we went round a shop that had horse things and I really miss having a horse and getting to buy stuff for it, so when we got to Tesco I bought some things to cheer myself up. No more shopping for 2 weeks now, I must be good. Also realised trying on some shorts that I've really put on weight, so that has to be sorted. So I feel guilty for a few reasons.
Looking at a local horse site I saw an advert for somebody who wants a sharer for their horse starting in January, battling with myself about emailing them. I've no guarantee I'll have the money in January but it'd help me have a goal to keep going if I had the prospect of a horse share.
The first thing I did when I came home was going on this site, it's good to feel like a human who can interact with others!
