How are you feeling today?

[Kyahstar]

Hey Poppy,

there is no need to feel guilty about talking to people on here as we are all here to help each other,

I hate being alone with my thoughts as they generally tell me how useless and pathetic I am. I often fell like I have no direction in life. I try to just get through each day separately and try not to think too far ahead..

[Poppy123]

I feel like the medication I'm on is a plaster and just about keeping the infection at bay, I think if that plater were to be removed I'd be in a lot of trouble emotionally!!! Feel like I'm doomed to be like this forever!

[Poppy123]

Thanks kyahstar I know u r right, just wish I could get an escape from it!  I try, long dog walks, helping homeless people, making soup (lol), but its still always there! :-(

[Poppy123]

My 19 year old son has now been diagnosed with it and he describes it so well....... He says ...... 'Mum, sometimes I just go out for a run, and I just run and run as if to try and run away from it'

[Poppy123]

My 19 year old son has now been diagnosed with it and he describes it so well....... He says ...... 'Mum, sometimes I just go out for a run, and I just run and run as if to try and run away from it' that's how desperate it makes u feel sometimes!

[Kyahstar]

I tend to you video games as my source escape, I get very immersed sometimes! also, I go to the pub and surround myself with my chatty friends, they do all the talking and I just sit and listen to them lol! saves having to listen to myself, as I've said before my mind doesn't appear to like me!

not healthy enough to run sadly, have though about joining the gym, but need to give up smoking first! that is something I'm really trying to do!

[woozywoo]

Poppy i know what you mean about the plaster and infection. I have often wondered what would happen 2 me if i came off my medication,not pretty! I have been on my meds for a long time and have been told i Will prob always need something 2 keep my mood tickin over! When i was first told that i felt like a failure! But Im reality so what. Its no different 2 my dad! If is a diabetic and meds insulin for the est of his life,that doesn't make him weak and useless,its just a part of his body isn't working properly. Just like my brain,which isn't working properly! So i am comin 2 terms with it and foot think about what if i took the plaster off anymore,i don't need 2 take it off!

Its so hard bein with your thoughts all the time and that is something i am battling with at the moment for me the worst time is late night/early hours! Everyone else is asleep and its just me and my thoughts,not nice! I have been writing them down though. As small and silly as they May seem,i am writing them in am email or a notepad. Then i close it and try 2 sleep. It doesn't always work,but sometimes it can dare the thoughts! X x

[bookletters]

I totally agree with the example of the diabetic person. My sister in law would die without her thyroid medication, so us needing medication is just the same, as long as it keeps our mood healthy, it's fine!!
Remember that science is progressing really rapidly, even as we are speaking a fast acting antidepressant is under clinical trial. TMS seems to works wonders too.
In a few years' time who knows how well and how quickly depression will be treated :)

[woozywoo]

Sorry about all the mistakes Im my posts,i am using my phone 2 post and it always does funny things!

Laying back in bed,as i feel bit low 2day and just a feeling of i can't be bothered! Even though the meds work,at the moment the illness isn't goin away quick enough for me. Fed up of it hanging around!

[bookletters]

Yes I am having more of a low day too today, silly illness!!

[mat]

 Came on now because I'm starting to get those lonely thoughts running through my head and can't seem to shake it  along with this dreadful headache  "£" 

I pray I can fall asleep otherwise ill be up all night !  Got work at 7am

[bookletters]

Have you thought of a way to help you relax: maybe a warm bath, glass of hot milk or something?
I know when depression hits you it's easy to say as it feels none of these will work but you never know.
Have you got some sleeping tablets to help you, even if just some herbal ones?

[mat]

Had a script for zopiclone.  I never got any more after I had a moment of weakness and  I understand why the doc never gave any more, I know I betrayed trust in a way,  I have been diagnosed with insomnia as well,  now got myself worried about my medication (which I have been posting about). 

 it's all happy days over here  . 

Got some music on now. And laying back.  So hopefully  I can try to relax

[bookletters]

It's part of the depression to be worried Matt, you will be fine I promise, you are just one step away from finding the right meds for you xx

[woozywoo]

Feeling a bit numb today. I have been up and about, doing things. Had a nap this afternoon, cooked and eaten a nice dinner. But there is just a feeling that i dont feel right. Cant put my finger on it though.