How are you feeling today?

[Depina]

Hi Zaf
Oh Sorry,sounds awful-get better SOON  :)
xx

[Zaf]

Thans Depina, I cant decide whether or not to go to bed or not but I feel I ought to wait for D to get home as he's been working since 8am and will want something to eat - I suppose some meadowsweet tea might help, I'll go and put the kettle on :)

[cornish]

i started to notice some progress but i know ive gone too quickly and now im burnt out feeling ill and just terrible really

[Zaf]

Its great yo hear yo feel you've made progress but its so easy so easy to overdo things cornish, can you manage to slow down a bit and get some rest?

[Munchroom]

How did the dentist go Zaf?

Cornish - we all get setbacks or feel like we're doing 'ok' only to be met with a sudden thud against a brick wall!! You have been doing brilliantly though - the appointment in itself was a massive thing so, in all honesty and from my own experiences, I am not massively surprised that its followed up with the feeling of having done 'too much'. As Zaf asks, are you able to take it easy for a while? Maybe just work one day over the weekend?

I'm poorly  I have a sore throat, sore sinuses and a cough... and I'm working this-evening. Only 4 hours, but I'm dreading it because I generally do night shifts - which I know I can cope with, know what to expect and am very close friends with the person I generally work with on nights. The evening shift though... it is only 4 hours compared to 10 but I know its going to be a very busy four hours and I am a bit rusty on evening routines.... kind of wish I hadn't put my name down for it now 

[Zaf]

everything throbbed for several hours afterwards and it took ages for the anaesthetic to wear off but when it did I treated myself to a baked potato with lashings of butter and grated cheese (I rarely eat dairy).

Poor you, hope you feel better very soon xx

[Munchroom]

Mmmmm a baked potato sounds yummy!! (Is it wrong to fancy that when its not even 9am??  )

[Zaf]

not at all :)

[cornish]

I've decided I'm going to have a whole weekend off .  Probably the first one in at least 4 months possibly longer.
Not looking foward to it but it's a step in the right direction
I feel I need to take some time to relax as I've been doing crazy hours recently and pushed my self a bit hard with the progress I've made and not taken small steps like I should.

I've made a vegetable lasagne at 4am before so baked potato at 9am seems sensible to me

[Zaf]

Its great you feel you ought to, its a big step forward :)

I'm sure we'll all keep an eye on line to support you if you need it  &*(

[Munchroom]

WOW!  Huge step forward 

Remember - don't put too much pressure on yourself, take it as it comes and accept that it will be hard and there more than likely will be SI BUT its still progress, I'm really proud of you! And of course, you know where I am and everyone will support you as best we can xx

[Lol]

That's fantastic Cornish I'm so pleased that you have made this decision. I will try to look in as much as possible over the weekend to support you. This is a step in the right direction and one that is very hard for you to take.

[cornish]

thanks guys but im having huge regrets about not working this weekend, i know im not suppose to take big steps like i have been but as i said i think im just pushing my self hard and im only really seeing the treatment as an obstacle for work.

thought hard about a dog and i feel too guilty about getting one, ive dog sat for people in the past and i know i could actually do it but i dont feel like i could be responsible for another life, i can barely take care of my self

[Zaf]

You're bound to be worrying about it cornish, can you find something else to do to take your mind off things?

Getting a dog could be your goal when you get to a certain step of recovery perhaps?

[Angelina]

I love how supportive this place is   The weekly local paper comes out every Friday and I always look at the jobs. It's been about 3 months since I've actually contacted people about their adverts though. Tonight there's a nice sounding local job that might not be too stressful so I was considering phoning (a huge phobia of mine, my phone's been on call divert for months) and my partner's just looked at me and said "please phone up about the job tomorrow, it might be just what you need" so I guess that's what my big goal for tomorrow is. Today I am feeling nervous as hell.

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Just checking it's location, the shop's way to far away. Today I am feeling disappointed. Partner's playing xbox and I'm about ready to throttle him, I think this is about the fifth time he's asked me to apply for a job so I prepare myself but then find out the job's a million miles away. He doesn't know about the preparation I have to do and the tiny glimmer of hope that this'll be the job to sort out my problems. Meh!