How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

I am so mad with my partner today. Yesterday I found out that she stopped seeing her counsellor and I said that that made me feel so disappointed and fearful for her future (because she has talked about not being able to understand her own thoughts which at times have included suicide). She snapped back at me saying I 'obviously don't trust her judgement'. Well as she has turned into some one unrecognisable recently I kind of DON'T trust her judgement because she is acting so out of character ALL THE TIME!!! Stopping seeing her counsellor makes me so angry because I feel like she owes it to herself, me and others around her who are helping her through her depression to do her bit and keep up with treatment! She then snapped 'why are YOU disappointed? it's MY therapy!!!' so I explained that I was disappointed that she felt it wasn't working for her as it is so important to address how she is feeling so she doesn't continue to feel that way. I hate seeing her sad and struggling through life behaving like I've never seen her behave before. Then she said : 'It HAS worked so I've stopped now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'. GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How come I was the last to know?????????????????? And how could she POSSIBLY be happy being this ignorant, selfish, thoughtless, cruel person she has become???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????? She is everything BUT those things! Am I to believe that this horrible version of herself is 'the real her' now? I almost don't recognise this imposter any more.       "£"   

[Alstare1974]

Hugs lol

[Alstare1974]

Someone (not medical) has suggested I might be suffering from PTSD, don't know how I feel about that. Guess I'm a bit embarrassed as I don't feel I've had a traumatic event as such and my symptoms don't quite match up. Guess I almost don't feel worthy of having it, that make sense.

[Lol]

ok, what 'trauma' was the some one refering to when they suggested they thought you might have PTSD?

[Alstare1974]

The loss ofmy best friend and 4 guys I knew in a helicopter crash at start of gulf war in 2003. Not long after I left the service.

[smirfy21]

hey guys I decided to have a couple of weeks away from this forum as I fealt like I needed a break from the internet.

I have decided to start back at uni and get lots of help whilst I am there and I am very nervous as I will be transfering to a different university. However I am really looking forward to getting a fresh start and it is close to home so I can carry on with all my therapy etc.

hope everyone is doing ok
smirfy

[Alstare1974]

Smirfy

Are you aware of the Dsa? Disabled students allowance. You might be able to get extra help from them at your university.

[Zaf]

Feel tired, tearful and very anxious, might hover around for a bit without contributing, disappointing to go back down again but I know its to be expected

[Depina]

Sorry Zaf,
Hope you feel lots better soon! />.

E T on my case (he hasn;t got the PW for this forum-only my e-mails XX
Can't post much

Take care
HUGS
D XX

[Lol]

Zaf it's all part of the rough road of depression. All part of it. You know that better days will come. Hang on in there and try to believe that better days will come. I PROMISE they will. You know they will because they have before and this is what happens. Do something small to treat yourself. Hang on in there thinking of you. Lol x

[Zaf]

Thanks guys, even though I know I'll get tbese lows its still disappointing, I havent felt this bad for ages but I DO know it will improve a little at a time :)

[Depina]

Good advice from Lol
Try and treat yourself 
Take Care
D XX

[cornish]

Someone (not medical) has suggested I might be suffering from PTSD, don't know how I feel about that. Guess I'm a bit embarrassed as I don't feel I've had a traumatic event as such and my symptoms don't quite match up. Guess I almost don't feel worthy of having it, that make sense.

The loss ofmy best friend and 4 guys I knew in a helicopter crash at start of gulf war in 2003. Not long after I left the service.

i have p.t.s.d. and i dont have a lot of the symptoms, for me they dont all show as there masked by the other problems i have.  its well worth mentioning the possibility of ptsd to your gp as the treatments for it are suppose to be very effective



hmm how do i feel.   i think a page full of  "£"    "£$ wouldn't come close to how i feel at the moment.
i still haven't managed to get hold of my solicitors and im panicking about it a lot and ive just realized ive forgotten to get my diazepam prescription

[Alstare1974]

How much medication you got left?  Can you last?  Anyone know if you can go to a and e and get some meds if you're stuck?

[Lol]

Cornish I'm sorry you feel this way. You can request an emergency prescrption from you Dr tomorrow morning if you haven't got enough left, some GPs charge for this for a same day turn around, then you might find the same at your pharmacy. Having this solicitors thing hanging over you is very stressful for you. big hugs for that.

Alstare do you feel a connection to what your friend has suggested?