How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

No problem lol, I do quite like bright crisp days in winter but the weeks we have that are wet and gloomy affect me quite badly.

[Lol]

That's a scary prospect. Do these light box thingies work at all? one of my staff has one but she can't work out whether it has any effect or not

[Zaf]

I did try one for a couple of winters but not convinced it worked for me, I do use a daylight clock in the bedroom which I swear by and would hate to do without.

[cornish]

cant see the point in keeping on suffering, i achieved everything i wanted to in my life at a young age, i did have simple dreams though    ive realized ive made a few improvements but cant keep this up, had a rather large set back today and now i dont really feel like i should keep causing problems for anyone vaguely close to me

[Alstare1974]

I totally get you Cornish :-(

[Zaf]

Please dont give up guys, I've been that low a couple of times in my life and managed to get well again with the hepl of medication and counselling

[smirfy21]

Cornish how are you doing today please dont give up, please think about what it would do to the people closest to you if you were to stop fighting.
I too have been in this state of mind for the past couple of weeks and the best thing that somebody close to me said was that if I killed myself they would never forgive me and wouldn't give me another thought because its selfish. it may seem harsh but it made me realise that eventhough I felt like ending it all there are people in my life that care.

please talk to somebody about how you are feeling and keep posting because we are all hear for you.
smirfy

[Depina]

Don't give up - you never know what is round the corner - for the better. There is always hope. Hugs XX

Hi Smirfy how are you today? XX

Zaf hope you're good XX

[smirfy21]

Hi depina
I am feeling Ok today the past couple of weeks have been rocky but I had my first outpatients appointment today which was hard but it made me realise that its my illness that is making me the way I am and that it can be controlled. also my psychiatrist doesn't take any crap so if she thinks I need to do something or to change something she makes sure I know about it, lots of people would say she was to tuff but to be honest thats what I need not one of these psychiatrists that lets you sit and cry and mope.

anyway I am on the road to recovery just one step at a time and I am also getting lots of help for my eating disorder which is great because I can see from the other girls in my group that things have gone too far and my body is desperate for nutrition.

I hope that you are well
smirfy

[Zaf]

Its good to hear you're taking steps in the right direction smirfy :)

Not too bad today thanks Depina, I think I rather overdid it this morning so desperately tired this afternoon and a bit down again, my own fault I guess

[cornish]

i know i cant give up, im too stubborn, been seriously thinking about getting my self voluntarily sectioned, or how ever that would work.

on the plus side ive cheered my self up again with retail therapy, ive brought a few strange things so far,  a dutch army grenade case, oh and some train horns and a huge compressor to run them.  dam there loud   i think there going in the land rover

[Zaf]

Do you think it might help cornish?

Retail therapy is great medicine :)

[Alstare1974]

I've also wondered about voluntary sectioning but the idea scares tge he'll out of me.

Cornish, I was living in saltash until split with my wife. So I guess I'm not too far away from you really.

[cornish]

not really sure but at least i wont be able to do something i will regret later.

yes it is but now when i have spent way to much on the truck now.  oh well, shes the only thing i really like any more.

these are the horns ive brought, video doesn't really do it justice but dam there loud :)   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HS7t7hDS8Y&feature=youtube_gdata_player

oh right, i actually live in saltash, bit close to devon for my liking though

[Alstare1974]

Well I'm up near exeter now