How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

Good  :) Hope you manage to get a good sleep!

Yeah... in containers... I don't think I'll bother with potatoes next year - still hopeful for a few tomatoes!! As it is at the moment, I could probably make a few jars of green tomato chutney, but I would like some nice red ones, it'd be nice if something turned out the way I planned, my 'Carrots' turned into Love in the mist overnight!!! 

[hope123]

I'm feeling ok, had a few good days at work without the other girl on! I've been much more relaxed. Worried as I showed a couple of colleagues my paintings, not sure if they liked them, but I do understand its not everyones style, but maybe me a bit paranoid!

Still fretting in my head the people I cut out of my life. I don't know why as they wont come back into my life again. Just makes me worried if  I ever see them around!

[cornish]

i went to work  feel good about it, i only did 2 hours of easy work about 10 mins from my house
had to do it to break up the bank holiday weekend

[Zaf]

I think everyone has had trouble with the garden with the weird weather we've had this year, lots of my stuff hasnt grown properly, something has eaten my potatoes and mice have had all the beetroot too!

Great to hear you've had a few good days smirfy, i think its part of the illness thinking things we do arent good enough or people won't like them and it becomes a bit of a vicious circle.  Have you worked out why you feel worried about seeing these people around?  It might help lessen your fears.

Hey, well done cornish :) 

[smirfy21]

oops Zaf think you meant hope

[Zaf]

Gaud, my brain is more foggy than I thought 

[Alstare1974]

Been feeling really rough the last few days. Have a horrible sense of fear and foreboding all the time and I'm totally catastrophising about the future and what it holds for me. On top of that I'm missing my wife (who isn't even talking to me).

I feel so lonely even though my parents are around and I think I'm all cried out. I just don't know to do with myself.

[Zaf]

I know its difficult Alstaire but try not to think of "what ifs" or look too far forward into the future (or for that matter look back and blame yourself for things), have you a doctor's appointment in the next few days so you can tell him how things are going?

You have to believe you'll get better, sometimes thats difficult to believe but it will happen, take every day as it comes and look for tiny improvements to keep you motivated if you can

Dont forget we all understand and will help any way we can xx

[Zaf]

I know its difficult Alstaire but try not to think of "what ifs" or look too far forward into the future (or for that matter look back and blame yourself for things), have you a doctor's appointment in the next few days so you can tell him how things are going?

You have to believe you'll get better, sometimes thats difficult to believe but it will happen, take every day as it comes and look for tiny improvements to keep you motivated if you can

Dont forget we all understand and will help any way we can xx

[Alstare1974]

No doctors appointment for a while. Regular GP seems unable to help me any more. Am seeing psychiatrist on the 12th.

[Zaf]

Its good you have been referred, hopefully the psychiatrist can get you on the way to recovery, it probably seems a long ime to wait but its not far away now, didnt you say you had a service support appointent too?

[Depina]

Thanks Zaf and Munchroom, I know what you mean. It is good to see your point of view. I am sure its 'cause he's so busy, Ihaven't said anything to him about it, well I haven't spoken to him for weeks. If I phone it is the answerphone and he doesn't answer, I e-mailed and texted him today but no answer, I was wondering what they were doing for his Birthday. I did text his wife too, and both of them have read it.

You are both doing very well gardening, lovely to grow your own veg.
Thanks for listening XX

[Alstare1974]

Its good you have been referred, hopefully the psychiatrist can get you on the way to recovery, it probably seems a long ime to wait but its not far away now, didnt you say you had a service support appointent too?

Not for nearly a month. 27th September.

[Zaf]

Hang in there Alstare, it seems like forever to wait but they are to help you

[Zaf]

Thanks Zaf and Munchroom, I know what you mean. It is good to see your point of view. I am sure its 'cause he's so busy, Ihaven't said anything to him about it, well I haven't spoken to him for weeks. If I phone it is the answerphone and he doesn't answer, I e-mailed and texted him today but no answer, I was wondering what they were doing for his Birthday. I did text his wife too, and both of them have read it.

You are both doing very well gardening, lovely to grow your own veg.
Thanks for listening XX

I dont know if I'd be brave enough but have you thought of calling from a different phone and see if he picks up?  I've done that in the past when I've thought someone is avoiding me, to be honest I think its very mean not to to return your texts and calls, I hope I havent upset you by saying that but somehow I felt it was necessary xxx