Hugs for everyone that needs them.
Im feeling ok today, it's my first day back at work after 2 weeks off, i was feeling so anxious last night about it all, worrying what people were saying behind my back, but it's ok. Thanks to the recommendation from Atos i have a fazed return to work so doing 4 hours a day this week, then 5 next week 6 the week after then back to the normal 7.24 providing everything goes to plan, i also dont have to deal with phone calls this first week so i can slowly get used to it again.
Aside from work im actually feeling pretty good, it's amazing really when you consider a few weeks ago i had made the decision to end my life, i had a plan i even wrote letters but now im looking to the future, planning things and even wanting to start a family, i know it's probably not the best time considering my recent 'freak out' but i really want kids and we've decided to leave it in the hands or fate or god or whatever, i've come off the pill and we'll see what happens.
Im not saying in cured i know that'll prob never be the case but im stable and that's all i can ask for i guess.
