How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

Thats great to hear Johann, send some of that sunshine up to norfolk please its like winter here again

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

So pleased for you, thats great news.

S x x x x

[warped]

Invisible,lethargic,depressed & looking for my " game face" to jump in my uniform and get to work.

[C_C]

Hi all,

I've not been on here for a few weeks. Managed to get settled in with a psychologist. Had three sessions now but it is very tough. Been thinking about it all and feeling quite down tonight. I have so many things going for me, more or less everything I want, and yet I still feel sad and just want to cry. Apparantely, my psychologist says my 'threat' system in my mind is turned on constantly so everything that happens is seen as a threat, hence the anxiety attacks. She also says my 'soothing' system / brain muscle part is inactive and we need to work on getting it active again through certain mind training techniques. I also have to practise mind attention training techniques to try and control all the thoughts that are constantly whizzing through my mind. We tried some light meditation but I just couldn't do it, it felt too uncomfortable and I had an overwhelming sense of guilt because I could think of at least 20 other things I could and should have been doing in that time instead of just sitting there in silence.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?

It's really getting me down thinking about it all and I just can't switch off. At least the meds will send me to sleep. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be able to. They always make me feel terrible in the morning though, theres no bounce to get up and enjoy the day and they just leave me feeling numb.

[Zaf]

I can relate to the guilt thing, have you tried thinking of The Now to slow your mind down or perhaps mindfulness, it wont stop you doing things but can help

Z xx


Very tired and still rather down but Jade is recovering well so I need to focus on that rather than negative things

[Zaf]

Exhausted, been up with Jade most of the night, IBS has struck this morning too

[Sweetpea]

I'm so sorry Zaf  &*( &*(.

S x x x x

[whiteadder]

Thinking of you Zaf...IBS is not nice, and always seems to make an appearance at the worst possible time

[pinkcasi]

Feeling guilty as i should be at work then going for my friends retirement lunch but i just cant face it, the thought of having to be there with all those people and 2 people that used to be my friends who just ignore me.  I should be doing the washing up or sat in the garden or cleaning the house and instead im sat on the sofa in my sweaty pj's watching Jeremy kyle.

[whiteadder]

Look after yourself pinkcasi - it's horrible when former friends ignore you. Thinking of you.

[whiteadder]

Feeling useless. Contemptuous of my last night self that thought things were looking up. Wishing the arthritic pains would go away, and fretting over small tasks that I should just do.

[mrmoody]

abit stupid,pissed off,angry, abit hungover and getting easily annoyed at people today around me

[warped]

Hyperthyroidism via lab results. CFS @ it's worse which seems to dance with my chronic depression the outside world, besides those here that know it, labels me, "lazy." UGH! W.E. Right?

[Zaf]

Tired but strangely not too depressed

[Sweetpea]

Ok today, just been swimming so tired but good tired, now off to do mum's hair and then cut her grass.

Hoping to persuade Craig to get me the garden swing I have been wanting tonight  .

Hugs for all that need them today  &*(.

S x x x x