How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

'One day at a time' is definetly how I'm taking it!

I've spent all day today making pasties and cakes - my kitchen looked like a flour bomb had exploded!! BUT... its such good therapy  :) If I'm out there cooking or baking, with music up really loud I can be lost in my own little world for hours.... and have something to show for it when I've finished (aside for a messy kitchen!)

Tired now though  x

[cornish]

i find making bread is grate therapy, the rougher you are with the dough the better it seems to taste :)

[smirfy21]

I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall, my psychiatrist doesn't seem to be listening to me, doesn't seem to be helping me and is determind to make me even more depressed with medications that I have told her I want to avoid as the side effects are huge. she also keeps leaving me for long periods of time to cope alone which is a nightmare. NHS are useless, what are they thinking??????

[smirfy21]

I hate that a chemical imbalance can completeley destroy somebodies life, its complete hell living in my brain. My family are not concerned and should be. Its all seen as natural behaviour in my family and I cannnot help but wonder at what point does somebody in my family actualy stop and say 'hey maybe this is something we need to be taking more seriously, maybe we need to get her some help'. at what point do they decide to step up and take some bloody responsibilty. I mean for christ sakes what is it going to take for them to notice?
do I need to go out and do something stupid and land myself in hospital, do I need to get high or completely trashed. for christ sakes what the hell does it take for them to notice that I cannot do this alone and why the hell is my psychiatrist not paying any attention.
I Dont know what to do anymore there is no other way of asking for help, I went to my GP and he tells me to see a psychiatrist which I do and then my psychiatrist tells me to go and see my GP because she cannot perscribe medication. Am I really expected to just keep going round in circles??

[seamie]

i know the feeling smirfy, i,m waiting for cbt and i was told there is at least a ten month waiting list. on my way out i was handed a list of phone numbers, mind , sane, samaritans etc to ring if i was having difficulties. that it until i get to the top of the waiting list. just cast adrift to sink or swim. mental health probs are not seen as a priority by the nhs. don,t give up though chuck.

right now i feel like getting drunk , having a damn good cry and hurting  myself. feel so alone 

[Zaf]

Desperately tired, tearful, not wanting to do anything and anxious at the thought I might have to.  Terrified of going outside again.

I had three months feeling reasonably OK but suddenly the black pit of depression has swallowed me up again, I dont feel I can cope with this illness any more  

[lightenup]

Hi everyone, seems like everyone including myself is having a difficult time "£".  I find it is so difficult as I wish someone could tell me how I will really get rid of this.  Smirfy my Physchiatrist medicates, forwarding the script to be issued my GP.  Personally I wish they would really understand (maybe they do), I have to see my GP this week to up my meds again.  Want to stop them.

Lol physchiatrist told me to try and keep away from my family and in laws, to cut the stress, abit difficult when my father had another heart attack a month ago, my mother fell last week.  Last Saturday my mother in law had another heart attack, and is still in hospital, and my father in law (aged 91) is getting senile so can't be left on his own.  Does anyone know anyone who genuinely got better from this crap.

Take care everyone, ((big hugs))

[Munchroom]

Oh my word guys 

Smirfy... It must be so incredibly frustrating. There have been times where I have felt like I am just a number in the system and no-one really cares at all and Seamie... to have to wait that long for an appointment you need like... yesterday is ridiculous!

Its all very well hearing about cuts and understaffing on the news- but we are the real people who it effects. I have worked in nursing and I know how it feels to be so ridiculously short staffed and you want to be giving the correct care, you are in that job because your desire is to help those less fortunate than yourself - but there isn't the time, or the funding to do so. Please do not give up hope though - I know the feeling only too well, but it seems everyone with mental health problems seems to face either problems with the NHS or the DWP... ot BOTH! And it is the last thing we need...

Big hugs to all of you - Seamie, I'm with you on the getting drunk and having a good cry!! But you are not alone, we all understand and we are all trying to beat this! xx

[cornish]

the system is crap but most of the people you deal with are loverly and really want to help you but are not able to due to the system,  i have a friend thats a nurse and she gets frustrated as hell with it all.

in my opinion getting drunk is not a good idea, one its a depressant and 2 it reacts badly with medication, i've been there and done it and reacted extremely badly. but having a big cry is a huge help for me, i had a psychiatrist tell me that smile and the world smiles with you, weep and you weep alone. then said so just smile and youll get better. i think he was a bit of a pr**k and thats not the worst of it but anyway back to my point.   you dont weep alone when you have the wonderful people on here to talk to, open up, show your emotions and dont hold anything back, because i believe here is where we can be free and understood by others, only fellow sufferers can truely understand

[Zaf]

You are so right Cornish when you say that no one can truly understand unless they've had depression themselves, however well meaning, concerned or even trained to help.

Today I'm feeling anxious as I know I ought to be doing some housework but all I want to is hibernate in bed

[smirfy21]

  I am seriously finding it hard to see the positive in life and have masively sunk into a dark depression this week.
I am supposed to be cleaning the house aswell zar and I know what you mean about just wanting to hibernate I have been in bed all weekend and finding the energy to do anything other than sleep seems impossible!!

lets hope that everyone is feeling more positive and happy next week

[Zaf]

Still feeling desperately tired and struggling to do the smallest tasks, this illness is so cruel 

[cornish]

im really tired too, didnt sleep at all last night and im working nights this week, hopefully i can sleep later

[smirfy21]

it would seem I have cycled again as I am actualy feeling good today not manic and not depressed just inbetween.

[smirfy21]

oh no everyone has gone a bit quiet, I hope that everyone is doing ok.   :)