How are you feeling today?

[Jane]

I did make it to the show yesterday - after 2 hours sleep and waking up late. ooops.. but got there and enjoyed. Although it wore me out I was shattered all evening on getting home my daughter and friend really enjoyed too; thankfully we didn't do too much walking. :)

Today I woke up full of energy and was really surprised. Was careful not to overdo it and have managed to get through the day with just a lull and a foggy head for the afternoon but managed not to go to bed.

Hope you enjoyed your lazy day Zaf - bliss when they happen.
Ice-lolly hope your bug passes quickly, headaches are a nuisance.
Caned and able ((hugs)) hope you feel brighter this evening.

Shaz Chicago sounds great - I watched the film again recently with my eldest - she has sung the theme tune at school so enjoyed knowing where it came from. :)

[Ruth]

I feel guilty and angry. I went to my CBT appoinment today and came away feeling like I should have been more prepared. Like I missed something, or my therapist wanted something more from me. I wanted to talk, but I just kept saying "I don't know" over and over again. I am scared that she will turn around say I can't help you if you are going to be like this. I have been going 4 months and i feel more and more guilty every time i leave. We discussed the fact that my father's constant criticism has left me feeling like I cannot do anything right. To the point where I constantly criticise myself instead. I sort of knew this anyway. Great. Lovely. So what do I do now? I'm sorry this is probably not the place for this. I feel somewhat like I am intruding and looking for someone to make me feel better about the fact that I am not being realistic or I'm being a coward and hoping someone else will make it all better. I am being entirely selfish and yet I am still posting this. Why?

[Glen53]

Its not selfish to seek help for something you dont understand Ruth. We are all here to help if we can.

Sometimes there are no answers and sometimes it takes time and a lot of digging to get at them. Trust me CBT staff must come across these character 'blocks' all the time. I very much doubt that everyone talks and talks in every session, Im sure lots of people have sessions where they just cant talk about things - i did on several occasions during my CBT 

Its technically up to them to lead the session and ask you things, after all they are the ones that are trained to get at the info they need to help you.

You are being a bit hard on yourself but I do understand you want answers. Maybe you should mention this in your next CBT session? How you are worried that you sometimes clam up and cant talk about things and that you were worried that it might affect your sessions? It may help them to shape your sessions slightly differently to help you.

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you ruth.  My ex critisised me for 15 years and I still struggle with self worth 12 years later, so I understand your feelings.

I agree with Glen, talk to your CBT counseller and tell them your feelings.

S x

[Buttercup]

I agree with the others, that you should talk to your cbt counsellor about how you feel and worry about clamming up.  I had CBT for a short time which was telephone based mainly because I live in a rural area.  This was really not working for me so I was going to be transferred to a different form of CBT, as there are different approaches they can use, this was also going to be face to face.  As it happens my Psych diagnonsis means that I can no longer receive CBT from them as they only go to level 3 and I need level 5, whatever this means 

[Ruth]

Thank you Glen, Shaz and Buttercup. I will try talking to her about it. The most frustrating thing is I don't know whether I'm expecting something more from myself or she is or both. I find it very hard to separate out what's me being critical and what's actually the case. Buttercup I think the levels refer to how much training the cbt practitioner has had. Surely they have a duty of care and therefore should be able to provide you with an alternative, or am I just being naive? Thank you all for your advice. I sincerely hope you have an enjoyable afternoon.  :)

[Buttercup]

When they sent the letter saying that I could no longer receive treatment from them, they did say it would have to be done by a psychiatrist or psychologist.  I have been promised this by my Psychiatrist but when is another matter 

[KateG]

Today I feel like I'm never going to get better, that I will be trapped in this medication-induced fog forever

[Ruth]

Hi Buttercup. Maybe you could speak to your psychiatrist and find out how long you can be expected to wait. Maybe a little nudge will remind them that you are still waiting? Might not help but it can't do any harm.
KateG.  &*( It feels a bit strange mentally hugging people you do not know, but I honestly hope you feel better soon.

[Buttercup]

For you Kate  &*(

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you Kate.

S x

[Glen53]

I'm sorry you feel low today Kate. I really hope this fog lifts for you soon.  &*(

[CharleysAngel']

I wish the ground would just swallow me up right now. I'm worried about tomorrow and I tired and I really don't feel very well and I'm still upset by the whole court selection disaster on Sunday

[Zaf]

&*(   For all those who need them xxx

[caned_and_unable]

Don't feel too this evening, was really bad yesterday and not too good this morning. Made the silly mistake from one day of feeling good that that was me getting better. Back to reality now. One day at a time. How's everybody else doing?