How are you feeling today?

[blockdata]

Hello all!

Today I am feeling about 40% happy, not too bad but not great! Im hoping to see my GP next week to get back on the meds, I am coming to terms with the fact I might not be finishing my degree, the fact that odds are Im not going to have many friends, or a partner, or kids, or fun ever again!

I have how ever decided to take up down hill mountain biking, that might give me the feeling I am looking for, trying to avoid rocks and trees at high speed, and if I get injured who cares? I also seem to have that feeling of I dont care if die atm, Im not suicidal, but if my doctor rang me up and told me I have a week to live I wouldnt be too upset, anyone else get that?

[Rycing]

Hello all!

Today I am feeling about 40% happy, not too bad but not great! Im hoping to see my GP next week to get back on the meds, I am coming to terms with the fact I might not be finishing my degree, the fact that odds are Im not going to have many friends, or a partner, or kids, or fun ever again!

I have how ever decided to take up down hill mountain biking, that might give me the feeling I am looking for, trying to avoid rocks and trees at high speed, and if I get injured who cares? I also seem to have that feeling of I dont care if die atm, Im not suicidal, but if my doctor rang me up and told me I have a week to live I wouldnt be too upset, anyone else get that?

blockdata, not right now, but I've been there...so I completely understand. You might want to google hyperbole and a half, adventures in depression....you're not alone. x

[supportme]

blockdata, I haven't finished my degree either. I am taking some time out to recover, and there is nothing wrong with that!!

Good luck, take it easy, and try and be kind to yourself! xx

[blockdata]

Rycing: That cartoon is great! Its also pretty much a step by step story of what I am going through, being depressed for no reason, the self loathing, think Im getting to the no fear stage!

Supportme: I took time out last year and repeating the final year again, and I have stuffed it again! Well, its not hopeless, basically I am gonna have to do a bunch of retakes this summer, but if I fail those I guess I will still have the diphe.

Hope you guys are ok too x

[Rycing]

Rycing: That cartoon is great! Its also pretty much a step by step story of what I am going through, being depressed for no reason, the self loathing, think Im getting to the no fear stage!

Supportme: I took time out last year and repeating the final year again, and I have stuffed it again! Well, its not hopeless, basically I am gonna have to do a bunch of retakes this summer, but if I fail those I guess I will still have the diphe.

Hope you guys are ok too x

Yep, I completely related to it, because I have been at that 'no feelings', 'nothing can hurt me now' stage.....it's good to know that from there, that there's only 1 way.....and that's up. That's my way of looking at it. The other cartoons are very funny too....I particularly like the story of the  fish and the ruined childhood (funnier than it sounds)! x

[Zaf]

Felt very tired at lunchtime, tried to have a nap but couldnt get to sleep, mood gone down too, not sure why but I'd guess its at least partly due to the dreadful weather we've been having the last 3 days

[CharleysAngel']

Feeling really tired and in quite a lot of pain (body aches). Head of house saw me at the end of school and said that I didn't look very well and I should go home, take some painkillers and go to bed for a little while, so that's what I intend to do.

[Buttercup]

Good plan Icelolly, take care  &*( &*(

For you Zaf  &*( &*(, you always have kind words for everyone. I think the weather plays a huge roll, it's not been too bad where I live, it was raining this morning but has cheered up a but now. Hole you get some rest and your mood lifts.

[Zaf]

Hope you feel better soon Icelolly xx

Thanks Buttercup, I'm sure the awful weather has contributed and I think the forecast is better for the next few days so with a bit of luck it will lift my spirits :)

Z xx

[smirfy21]

Ranting is good in a way smirfy, there is no need to apologise

It can be a huge battle to get a diagnosis for something obscure, I found this in the 80's when I was exhausted all the time, eventually it turned out I have allergies/sensitivities to a lot of foods and when I avoid them I feel a lot better.  My symptoms were achy joints, massive water retention, itchy eyes, catahr and almost permanent exhaustion - in the days before the internet it was a struggle to find out what was wrong, something we really dont need to have to do when we are feeling terrible anyway

I really hope you can get some sort of diagnosis and the help you deserve smirfy &*(

Z xxx

Thanks Zaf
so I have just come from the psychiatrist and it turns out my other psychiatrist is on 2 months annual leave which is a bit of a nightmare however it did mean that I got the opportunity to have a good chat with both my GP and Psychiatrist today and they have started me on Citalopram for depression, ferrous sulphate for the fatigue and some sleeping pills to help with the insomnia. On a possitive note my psychiatrist and GP have both managed to agree on a diagnosis of M.E although they want to send me over to the hospital to have a scan and some other tests just to rule out other medical conditions.

It is a relief to finaly have some answers although M.E is a bit scary but it does mean I can rule out bipolar which is great.

I just wanted to say thank you to all you lovely lot for supporting me through the past couple of months and putting up with my ranting.
smirfy

[Munchroom]

Ranting is good in a way smirfy, there is no need to apologise

It can be a huge battle to get a diagnosis for something obscure, I found this in the 80's when I was exhausted all the time, eventually it turned out I have allergies/sensitivities to a lot of foods and when I avoid them I feel a lot better.  My symptoms were achy joints, massive water retention, itchy eyes, catahr and almost permanent exhaustion - in the days before the internet it was a struggle to find out what was wrong, something we really dont need to have to do when we are feeling terrible anyway

I really hope you can get some sort of diagnosis and the help you deserve smirfy &*(

Z xxx

Thanks Zaf
so I have just come from the psychiatrist and it turns out my other psychiatrist is on 2 months annual leave which is a bit of a nightmare however it did mean that I got the opportunity to have a good chat with both my GP and Psychiatrist today and they have started me on Citalopram for depression, ferrous sulphate for the fatigue and some sleeping pills to help with the insomnia. On a possitive note my psychiatrist and GP have both managed to agree on a diagnosis of M.E although they want to send me over to the hospital to have a scan and some other tests just to rule out other medical conditions.

It is a relief to finaly have some answers although M.E is a bit scary but it does mean I can rule out bipolar which is great.

I just wanted to say thank you to all you lovely lot for supporting me through the past couple of months and putting up with my ranting.
smirfy

I'm pleased things are looking a bit more positive for you Smirfy and I hope this new medication helps. Just in case you didn't know (I didn't until my Dr pointed it out) Vitamin C helps with the absorption of Iron (ferrous sulphate), so if possible, try taking some of that too or drink lots of orange juice  :)


Feeling ok today - have a few social things coming up over the next 36 hours which I'm feeling terrified about whilst at the same time looking forward to them... the fact that 2 of them involve food doesn't massively help.

xx

[Buttercup]

Smirfy, that sounds positive, in that you will hopefully end up with the meds you need  :)

Don't worry about ranting, you need to tell people how you feel and not bottle things up.

[Zaf]

Its great your doctor and psychiatrist have got together to come up with a dagnosis even though its a scary one, I think ME is understood better now than in the 80's when I wondered if I had it.

I'm really pleased for you that your medics are taking things seriously and doing something positive to help &*(

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

That sounds much more positive for you smirfy, at least they seem to be listening to you, and looking into the causes of why you are feeling this way.

It seems as if we have all been feeling quite low the past few days, I have not been great again today, headachey and tired, did sleep for an hour this afternoon.  I agree the weather doesn't help, the sunshine really lifts my mood.

S x

[Rycing]

I blame the full moon- really, I do. It's VERY big, VERY bright and VERY round here tonight.......and it's true......it always affects me. I felt sad again today and I have been feeling better since meds.........my youngest is hyper, which always happens as well.