How are you feeling today?

[Pete]

Today I have had enough of all this. I don't want it anymore. I'm sick of it and all it entails so I'm not having it or doing this anymore. That is all!!

[Zaf]

can we help in any way Pete?

[oxocube]

Well this depression business is like a roller coaster, ups and downs.

Its amazing one day you can feel so great,and think thinks are getting better,almost your old self.

Then the next day,or later that day,and its all downhill.

Did not sleep very well last night due to the -10 temperature outside,and it felt like that in my bedroom,very cold.

So feeling down today,all so worried about going back to work on Monday, that is causing me great anxiety at this time.

One problem solved,our bedroom is at the front of the house and a street light is opposite it.
We get quite a lot of light pollution from it, so have bought blackout liners for the curtains,my partner is busy fitting them now, with a cold.

Finding it difficult getting use to the new home, lots of work needed doing to it, but we are getting their slowly.

I just feel like giving up, I hate feeling like this, when something positive has happened I don't see it like that,I only see the negative and totally ignore the good things.

Its hard work. :)







 

[CharleysAngel']

I'm so lonely

[Buttercup]

For you Icelolly  &*(

Sorry if I'm not that chatty at the moment, not feeling like talking much 

[cornish]

I'm so lonely

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i know how you feel my dear

[smirfy21]

feeling pretty low tonight, missing my family and wishing I wasn't alone.

[cornish]

i wish i wasn't alone sometimes too,  other days im glad im alone.


icelolly, your avatar never fails to put a little childish smile on my face.  also it makes me head to the freezer for a fab or what ever else i have in there


had a bad week,  been really ill with "man" flu.  wouldn't have gone to work on thursday and friday due to being too ill.  only went in due to another company messing up a deadline for some gearboxes and moters, which was a few weeks ago and only i knew the control system side of it. they were suppose to come on thursday but didn't turn up and didn't even have the courtesy to call. then they called on friday morning saying they would be there at 9 and they didn't turn up till 11, they didn't bring the drawing i needed so i was stuck there for over 12 hours. i gave up watching the time after that and i had a huge list of problems caused by them. got really pissed off with them . now im suffering with the flu. because i was stuck working in the cold for way too long and the most annoying part of it all was everyone at work left early on friday knowing how ill i was and the only person who offered to help all day was the laborer who wasn't really able to help.
if the parts had arrived last month like they should i wouldn't have had all this extra stress and having to work bloody hard when i was too ill to even be at work. the machine was suppose to be up and running by the end of january at the latest and every day its down was costing them thousands and friday was the absolute last day it could be out of commission or they would not be in serious trouble.
i only stayed as i dont like letting people down, especially good customers.
probably wont get any thanks for putting my self out again. getting used to being un appreciated and treated like crap and now im getting a lot more abuse about being crazy and useless.

[Glen53]

I know it may not help much cornish but they are just words. Looking back at your post it looks to me like you are anything but useless and as for being crazy? Surely not bringing design drawings along that are needed is more crazy than the poor s*d who stands in the cold waiting for them to get their act together!

It never ceases to amaze me how insensitive and selfish people can be. 

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks cornish, I'm sorry you having such a bad time at the moment.

I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and my mum is coming with me, the doctor is going to tell her exactly what head of year told her and she is going to have a go at me again. I'm hoping the doctor will want to speak to me on my own at some point, whenever my mum has come to the doctors with me before she always overpowers me and answers all the questions i get asked. This really annoys me because i cant tell her what she needs to know.

I have a really bad cold, its been a little better today but I am still feeling really ill

[cornish]

Thanks cornish, I'm sorry you having such a bad time at the moment.

I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and my mum is coming with me, the doctor is going to tell her exactly what head of year told her and she is going to have a go at me again. I'm hoping the doctor will want to speak to me on my own at some point, whenever my mum has come to the doctors with me before she always overpowers me and answers all the questions i get asked. This really annoys me because i cant tell her what she needs to know.

I have a really bad cold, its been a little better today but I am still feeling really ill

 &*(  i really feel for you my dear and wish there was something i could do to help.

[KateG]

Hope your flu improves cornish.

Icelolly is there anyway you could get a message to your GP before your appointment, that you need to speak to her without your mum being there, so she says to your mum "I just need to speak to icelolly on her own for a few minutes"? So it looks like it's your GP's idea not yours?

Mums care but sometimes they go over the top. My mum wants to come with me to see my consultant on Tuesday but my OH has talked her out of it. And I'm nearly 40.......

[Zaf]

Flu is miserable cornish, hope you feel better very soon &*(

Icelolly, I'd say the same as Kate about the doctor xx

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone,

I could call her tomorrow but someone will find out. I think she will ask to talk to me on my own anyway, she knows that my mum doesn't really agree with me much so I don't think she will ask me how I feel infront of her.

[cornish]

Flu is miserable cornish, hope you feel better very soon &*(

Icelolly, I'd say the same as Kate about the doctor xx

feeling worse but thats partly due to not taking my meds again, partly due to me not making an appointment to get more as im only allowed one weeks supply at a time, my gp normally makes the appointments for me before i leave. dunno why it didn't happen last time.
i have enough as im sort of rationing them out a bit and i have a small reserver but i have 2 proper days left at full dosage and the earliest appointment is on wednesday night, could have got an emergency one sooner but i feel like other people need it more than me.  they will last at a low dosage but i haven't taken any over the weekend and friday so im starting to get withdrawal from them.  thankfully i have enough diazepam and antipsychotics to keep me going

Thanks everyone,

I could call her tomorrow but someone will find out. I think she will ask to talk to me on my own anyway, she knows that my mum doesn't really agree with me much so I don't think she will ask me how I feel infront of her.

surely there has to be patient doctor privacy thingey ??


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been looking into this a bit more, heres a link that outlines your rights a little bit.   http://www.youngminds.org.uk/for_children_young_people/unhappy_with_treatment/your_rights  hope thats helpful.