How are you feeling today?

[Alstare1974]

Feeling really sad and guilty tonight. Feel like I could just cry.

[cornish]

And I have finally come to the conclusion that I don't fit in anywhere, I will always be pushed out. I am not good enough for anyone either

You will find people that you just click with one day, but for now you have us to put up with

[cornish]

Feeling really sad and guilty tonight. Feel like I could just cry.

Just let it all out

[Alstare1974]

Thanks Cornish. Just feeling more than a little sorry for myself and a bit lonely. How's things with you mate? 

[smirfy21]

Feeling so very low, I have hit rock bottom and although help is now at hand I can't help but feel that it is going to be a long road back to recovery. I have spent the day by getting rid of unnecessary junk in my house and putting some colour round the room, and got some plants as I feel like if I spend the day surrounded by colour and light it might help to aid my recovery (does that sound weird?)

I can't wait to be rid of this orquad, shy person that has taken over my mind and body and to get back the spritely person I used to be.
I am thinking of you all and trying to send you warmth and happiness
smirfy

[Zaf]

Is there something thats triggered this Alstare?



It can be a long time recovering smirfy and we will be with you all the way if you need us. Have you thought of keeping a journal to enable you to look back and see how things are going on a regular basis?  I find scoring how I feel out of 10 very useful.  If you feel it would be helpful but dont want to do it on the public forum there is  private space for members only, if you want access to it let me know and I'll sort out access for you.

Sorting out junk and getting things around you to brighten up your room is a great idea, I did the same recently with our whole bungalow and have taken bagloads of stuff down the local charity shops. 

Z xxx

[Glen53]

Icelolly, it only feels like that - trust me. Cornish is right, in time you will find people you fir in with. In the meantime, avoid those who dont have time for you, you dont need them. Why would you want to spend time with people who wont accept you for who you are? You will find your place in life, I promise.  &*(

Smirfy, it doesnt sound weird to me. If it works and makes you feel better - if only for a while - it cant be bad can it?   :)

My thoughts are with you all - please take care of yourselves.

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks cornish and Glen, its just so difficult when you have to sit and watch people who are so selfish and horrible get everything they want, and everyone else thinks they are wonderful but only you seem to see the dark side.

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you Icelolly.

S x

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Shaz xx

[Glen53]

Thanks cornish and Glen, its just so difficult when you have to sit and watch people who are so selfish and horrible get everything they want, and everyone else thinks they are wonderful but only you seem to see the dark side.

Life in a nutshell Im afraid. It wont be the last time you see that happen. All you can do is worry about you and your own and let them get on with it. if you believe in Karma, it will come back to them eventually 

[woozywoo]

Am takin my 2nd week off work next week. Felt hugely judged when i phoned 2 inform my work place. That is still playing on my mind now and i know it will this time next week when i go back. I am goin 2 force myself 2 go back after this week even if i am not ready and then theyn deal with when fall out if i am out 4 months because i returned 2 early.

I know these are all signs of depression,been there before many times. But surprised how much i am suffering them 2day. No interest in anything what so ever. Tried watching tv,playing game,goin on internet, reading a book. Just want 2 lay alone in a dark room.

[Zaf]

Yes, all signs of depression, and while it may be a bad idea to go back to work so soon the worry about work may be similarly harmful and only you can judge that xx

[supportme]

I feel broken today.

[Glen53]

I feel broken today.

Message sent.

Woozy i can see where you are coming from with returning to work, but Zaf is right. Try not to rush back if you can - it will only stretch your coping mechs further. Are you talking to anyone about how you feel other than your GP?