How are you feeling today?

[Got]

I'd like to respectfully say, I'm not posting anymore.

I'm not stable enough to handle people having a go at each other, or for people to suggest that I have in someway upset someone, when all I have done is try to maintain integrity and respectful interaction.

I feel so uncomfortable with it, that I don't want to contribute any longer, as it triggers me terribly and gives me anxiety.

I will post in the journals section and if arguments are drawn into that I will cease to post full stop as I don't want to be triggered.

I have made this post as polite as I can do and it is written with full respect to everyone concerened.

Love and peace to all,

Steve XX

[Bewildered]

I don't see people having a go at each other..everyone is just voicing their opinions but frankly if you cannot see what a vioaltion it was...well that completely baffles me..Zaf is a wonderful,helpful caring human being who has made a mistake and being a human well that is always bound to happen but it was a mistake and then posting Lol's pm reply on here just compounded that. We come on here and let it all oout..we are sad and in despair and often desparate but lots of us let that go here and then try to function as best as we can out there in the real world...we are not as sad and despairing out there because the people we love or the jobs we do all depend on us so we have to just live. Everyone should realize that just because someone comes on here and seems very bad thatt day or indeed doesn't come on here for a few days doesn't mean that we are out there alone and suicidal esp when we have never spoken of suicide or suicidal feelings. We are out there getting by and when we need the forum again we will come back. Not everyone is so completely broken that they need a 24 hour watch...some of us just needed a place to come to be free and private.
That might all be a bit rambly but it's because I am 'speaking' with great care as I feel frustrated and annoyed with the situation and I don't want to swear.

[Got]

Perhaps I should clarify....

it triggers me for my own psychological reasons. My ability to deal with this is impaired.

I am trying to be polite and kind and say I'm sorry, but I can't handle this...I know it sounds really weird and it is, but I help it.

This site was the only place I know where arguements do not happen. I have had to move to aniother country to escape all that is going on in my life. Now it happens here...I have to go.

I am sorry. Its very strange I know. Sorry.

You are all lovely people...this is my own issue, no one elses.

Steve XXX

[Glen53]

What started as a mistake has now gone too far. 

If I may be constructive I think maybe a disclaimer stating some of what Lol has detailed before would be a good idea for people to read as they join the forum. It is the nature of depression and especially anxiety to worry about those we care about and this can lead to disaster as we have clearly seen.

There is nothing more to be gained by disussing this further or attacking anyone and if the forum is to go on acting as a support site then all this must stop.

If any of my opinions or posts have upset anyone, then please accept my apology.   

Peace to you all. I truly wish you all the best. x

 

[Ezel]

I am sorry that I haven't stepped in before now.  After I have locked this thread I will be going through posts and where appropiste I will be deleting and modifying posts.  *Please do not be offended if I do as no offence is intended*

I will re-open this thread in 24 hours.    

Thank you Glen53, for your last post.

Right at this moment I have a headache because I care about you all and wish I had the power to make you all feel better.  

[Ezel]

*****Thread re-opened*****

Today I feel exhausted, didn't sleep well last night - a friend rang at 11.45 pm and hubby took the call but it disturbed my sleep - was up early this morning, got shopping done and saw another friend this afternoon.

[Rebel Ian]

Hope everyone is ok today  &*(

[supportme]

I am having the worse day. I just want to give in I can't win this battle. I feel like I lost a long time ago.

[Ezel]

Hang on in there supportme  &*(

Rebel Ian ~ I wish I could say I'm okay but have just come back from the minor injuries unit.  We dropped a laptop back to a friend and it was like an ice rink by his front door and I went flying with me ending up with a badly sprained ankle  $%^

[supportme]

Ezel, I'm not even curious as to what happens next

I had it with people constantly hurting me.

I'm not doing this anymore.

[Zaf]

Hang on in there supportme  &*(

Rebel Ian ~ I wish I could say I'm okay but have just come back from the minor injuries unit.  We dropped a laptop back to a friend and it was like an ice rink by his front door and I went flying with me ending up with a badly sprained ankle  $%^

Ouch  

[Zaf]

About a 3.5  (see journal)

[Glen53]

Supportme, please talk if you possibly feel you can. Dont suffer with these feelings alone.

If you dont want to post anything heavy on the open forum, you can pm me and I will listen.

[Ezel]

supportme I agree with Glen.

[Sweetpea]

Poor you Ezel  ^&^ hope its not too painful.

Support me you know I always listen.

I'm not too bad today, slept quite well, busy all day today.

Hope everyone else is ok today.

Take care all

S x  :)