How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

Oh Woozywoo that's an awful way to feel.  Your situation will turn into a tornado inside you if you let it but you can control it into a constant gentle breeze with focus and understanding of yourself and your illness. Get as many thoughts out as you can so they don't swirl around in your head and make a list of things you need to do and seperate them as much as possible into managable chunks. Focus as much as you can on recognising when you have completed somthing and celebrate yourself. don't let the achievement go unnoticed in place of something daunting to come. You have troubled waters in your horizon but you ARE going to get through them. You know they will rock you boat, expect it, but you ARE going to navigate them. Just like waves on the sea there will be many infront of you, but just like waves on the sea there will be many behind. Be proud to look back and let them give you the courage to tackle new ones. You've already ridden a fair few!

Keep talking. we're here for you.

[Zaf]

Ill, tired, tearful, wanting to hibernate and really p1$$ed off this cold has started to reverse the improvement I felt

[doublep]

Sick of feeling numb all the time.  Its driving me mad.  Tempted to stop taking the citalopram.

Poesies tomorrow. Honestly can't be bothered with it.

[CharleysAngel']

One year today

[woozywoo]

Not a good start 2 my day. No reason,just feels like a bad day. Want 2 hide away. Eyes are hurting 2day from so much crying yesterday! Want 2 give up,but i have one reason 2 keep go i am terrified of losing that! 
 

[Munchroom]

Oh Woozywoo  &*( I know all too well how it feels to keep forcing yourself to go to work and function on a normal level when all you want to do is hide away. It is the hardest thing I've ever had to do and you have my every sympathy. If you don't mind me asking - what is your specific reason to keep going? xx

 

[woozywoo]

A very special someone! That's all that is keeping me goin!

[Glen53]

Icelolly -  &*( We are here for you.

Woozywoo - im sorry that you are suffering this way. Lol is right in what he has said above. I think you need to prepare yourself for a rough ride as it seems that things may get worse before they get better. Sometimes this is needed and although it will be a struggle, keep thinking of that special person and the life you are aiming for on the other side of the storm.

Doublep - I can relate to your feelings on citalopram, both me and my wife are sure it makes me worse. All i would say is discuss this with your GP first before stopping the meds as it can make things worse.

Zaf -  &*( Get under that blanket as soon as you can and I will make you an imaginary hot chocolate.

I hope you all feel better soon. It sounds like you are all facing trying times right now. Im thinking of you all.

[Zaf]

thanks Glen, that sounds lovely, I will probably hibernate once I get home from the office, David is taking the dog to the vet for me :)

[woozywoo]

Thanx 4 your kind words glen,but that's what i am scared of,things gettin worse. which i am not stupid,i know when i leave my partner it is goin 2 be a lot harder than what i am experiencing now! but how do i cope with that?

i met someone on a course yesterday and her story was quite an inspiration 2 me. Her relationship 10years. They split up,she moved,new job,new area and she said even though at the time it was awful she has come out the other side and life is great 4 her now! She said even though i will feel weak,helpless and pathetic,that there is light and she told me 2 go 4 it if it was what i really wanted! It is what i really want.

I have hit the dip that i have been preparing 4 and it seems 2 be work it is affecting the most! I am sitting here,marking books,nearly crying,just wanting 2 run away  and hide. Home is my saviour at the moment,or at least my bedroom where nothin and no one can get 2 me! Im so tired of this illness and the lack of support i get from professionals because i am well enough 2 work. This is when it happened 2 years ago and i was off work 4 5months. Im scared!

[Ezel]

Feeling tire and fed up today nor can I concentrate on anything  "£"

[CharleysAngel']

Feel horrible, seriously considering going to my Head of year tomorrow and telling her I can't do it anymore

[Zaf]

Slightly less awful than this morning, not much use to anyone here today I'm afraid, hopefully a bit better tomorrow

[Glen53]

Woozywoo, hang in there. The only thing you can do right now is deal with each day at a time. Keep talking to us about what worries you - this will change from day to day and we may be able to help you.

Icelolly, tomorrow is a different day. Dont second guess how awful it will be yet - if you start playing out an awful day in your head you will most likely find a way to make it happen. Is there anything we can help you with? What specifically is getting you down? Is it mostly the memories of the aniversary you mentioned before?

Ezel I hope you feel better tomorrow. It sounds like you have had a tough few days so Im not surprised you feel tired.

Zaf, you cant be strong all the time. You expend so much time helping others on the forum and now you are feeling a bit low yourself its time to step back and look after you. I hope you can find time to rest - nice bath, cuppa tea or hot squash and feet up   I will be thinking of you and hope tomorrow is kinder to you.

My thoughts are with you all. Take care.

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Glen, I think its just everything. All the lies and the rumours about other stuff that's happened. I'm exhausted from pretending that everything is okay. When I wake up in the morning I will be faced with the same problems from the night before and things won't be different. I don't even know what to do with myself