How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

Tired, unmotivated, a kind of niggiling anger and annoyance 

I'm sorry to hear that Munch. Is there anything in particular that you are angry/annoyed at? or is it just general and all consuming? Both are bad!!!
I like your new personal icon. Is it one of your own creations? It's gorgeous.

I too am feeling angry and annoyed (the general and the specific type), but I think they are misplaced emotions. Sadness, as always, is the forefront.
 &*(

[Zaf]

Tired, unmotivated, a kind of niggiling anger and annoyance 

Did you manage to get any rest today? xx

[Zaf]

Really annoyed! I spoke to my head of year today like my doctor asked me to about having counselling. I told her that they doctor said it would be very difficult for me to be accepted anywhere if I haven't been through the school system first.
My head of year showed me an email she had got when she asked if I could have the counselling and it said that as my doctor made the diagnosis she has to give me the treatment and not the school. I tried to explain to her that I hadn't had an official diagnosis yet , apparently my form tutor had told her that I had. Tutor caused me so much grief last year and I wish I had never told her, she even discussed my problems with another student! Now she has gone and given inaccurate information and I have got to sort it all out! I think I am actually going to kill her tomorrow!!  "£$

It looks like I am never going to get any treatment , its just something else for me to worry about and keep me awake

Spunds to me everyone is trying to pass the buck 

Do you think you could get a letter from your GP saying she wants the school to sort some counselling?

[Munchroom]

Tired, unmotivated, a kind of niggiling anger and annoyance  

I'm sorry to hear that Munch. Is there anything in particular that you are angry/annoyed at? or is it just general and all consuming? Both are bad!!!
I like your new personal icon. Is it one of your own creations? It's gorgeous.

I too am feeling angry and annoyed (the general and the specific type), but I think they are misplaced emotions. Sadness, as always, is the forefront.
 &*(

I'm annoyed at myself for being this way. When we were out with friends last night I was so envious that they can both work and they both have lots of friends and the energy to do things that keep them fit and active. I know I shouldn't be envious - I have friends, I have an amazing fiance, house, dog etc.... but, I just wish I was well- and living!!

I also still have moments when I'm still really hurt by the whole Peter thing and that winds up with me blaming myself for what happened. Theres a huge part of me that wants to just be able to be friends again, I mean, we're friends in the fact we still talk on msn and we get along, but we don't see each other. I've tried broaching the subject with Chris and he's still of the mindset that he never wants to see or speak to him again - never mind have him anywhere near me. My tolereance for other people is quite low at the moment. I feel like I just want to curl up ina a ball and hide from everything. But I have to do this course work, I have to try and get my life back on track.

Also - my doctor is off and they don't know when he will be back - definetly not next week (when I was due to see him) and highly possible not the week after either.  


Its not one of my creations no... its actually a tray design from a swedish homeware company that I really like!  

Did you manage to get any rest today? xx

I slept in until about 12.30, which was nice and I should really count my blessings for being able to do that! Thisafternoon I have just been looking at stuff online - although I did manage to at least read some of this next unit, so I guess thats a bit of a step towards completling it and getting it out of the way!


I'm sorry I'm rubbish at the moment guys and unable to be the one giving support, I really wish I could.

[Lol]

Munchroom you will have what your friends have again. It will come. Never underestimate the problems other people go through as well! they may well  be depression sufferes and they're notgoing to tell you are they!? Just as I;m sure you didn't mope arund all night - I'm sure you 'acted' just fine! You never know what goes on behind closed doors.

This Peter thing. Is it making you worse not having him in your life physically?

[CharleysAngel']

Really annoyed! I spoke to my head of year today like my doctor asked me to about having counselling. I told her that they doctor said it would be very difficult for me to be accepted anywhere if I haven't been through the school system first.
My head of year showed me an email she had got when she asked if I could have the counselling and it said that as my doctor made the diagnosis she has to give me the treatment and not the school. I tried to explain to her that I hadn't had an official diagnosis yet , apparently my form tutor had told her that I had. Tutor caused me so much grief last year and I wish I had never told her, she even discussed my problems with another student! Now she has gone and given inaccurate information and I have got to sort it all out! I think I am actually going to kill her tomorrow!!  "£$

It looks like I am never going to get any treatment , its just something else for me to worry about and keep me awake

Spunds to me everyone is trying to pass the buck 

Do you think you could get a letter from your GP saying she wants the school to sort some counselling?

My GP did say about writing to the school before, so I will probably be able to get a letter from her. Its just so annoying, I feel like I always have to go out of my way just to get something done. I know that people are trying to help me but sometimes it really doesn't feel like it x

[Zaf]

I would be feeling very frustrated and annoyed too but I think it may be the only way to get the counselling sorted

[Zaf]

Oh munchroom  &*(  while I can understand your feelings there really is no reason to be annoyed for yourself for being ill.

Thinking of you xx

[Munchroom]

This Peter thing. Is it making you worse not having him in your life physically?

I don't know..... I have to be careful not to look back on everything with rose tinted glasses. It was horrible feeling like I was in the middle of him and Chris by the end. They no longer had anything in common and Chris didn't like him coming to our house because he could see what was happening - whereas I was frustratingly naive! I guess I miss the friendship I thought we had and I do miss him, I miss his humour and the things we did together, but I know I can't have him back in our lives because how it would make Chris feel.

Oh munchroom  &*(  while I can understand your feelings there really is no reason to be annoyed for yourself for being ill.

Thinking of you xx

Thankyou Zaf, I know its what I would say to anyone esle that felt the way I do right now. But I'm not so good at listening to my own advice.

Everythings just feeling really jumbled.

xx

[Zaf]

I hope things improve for you very soon xx

[Ezel]

Have been really tired today and feel asleep for about 2 hours early evening.

[cornish]

 *(* to you munch

i like your new pic too but for some reason i can see mr hanky the christmas poo dancing around in it and im laughing like a fool at something thats not real again.

[CharleysAngel']

Going to take some painkillers (I know I shouldn't but I am generally in pain) and go to bed. Still really tired and lacking proper sleep, makes me very stressy which isn't that good. :/  But one day left and then its the weekend.


Munchroom, I was reading your posts from earlier and I am so sorry I'm not very good at giving advice so I would just like to say I'm thinking of you and I hope you feel better soon xx

[Lol]

*(* to you munch

i like your new pic too but for some reason i can see mr hanky the christmas poo dancing around in it and im laughing like a fool at something thats not real again.

I didn't realise Mr Hanky was a Christmas poo Cornish? And I can't believe either of us have just said these sentences.
Are you back on your meds yet? What did the Doc say?

[woozywoo]

Strange....

Im feeling ok, but i feel about bad about this forum. I have had a couple of PMs and i want to write on some of my posts, but feel too tired to do it. But that seems unfair to the people who have taken time for me.

I think its just been a busy week being back at work, still not sleeping brilliantly and head is whirring with everything going on at the moment. Which is the annoying thing, because i know it would help me to go my thoughts and feelings down.

Maybe on the weekend when i am maybe not so tied i will manage to post...