How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

Woken up by the dogs going mad just after 12, effing fireworks    feeling rather jaded and lazy this mornng

Fed the dogs and horses and back out shortly to put the horses out (they were stabled overnight because of the threat of fireworks) so hopefully being outside for a bit will wake me up

[Raindrops]

All my muscles ache and I feel unmotivated and miserable

[Lol]

Sorry to hear that Zaf your poor animals.  I hope they feel calmer today and your sleep pattern isn't disturbed too much.

[Lol]

All my muscles ache and I feel unmotivated and miserable

Oh no Raindrops this is a horrible way to feel  Isn't it awful when you just can't get out of that unmotivated mind-set. What are your family doing today? Can you join in something with them? Maybe play a silly game or watch a comedy together with a big tin of chocs? (It's still xmas  ) I know getting out of depression isn't as simple as that but I think it is important to be kind to yourself. Sometimes it works, sometimes is makes things even worse, but is it worth a try do you think? What can put a smile on your face?

[Zaf]

Sorry to hear that Zaf your poor animals.  I hope they feel calmer today and your sleep pattern isn't disturbed too much.

Yes they're OK now thanks, it didnt do much for my sleep but with luck I'll get back to 'normal' before too long.

[woozywoo]

Hope you get back to normal soon zaf!

I too am worried about my sleep. I havent been sleeping well. Not sleeping until 2am and then not getting up until 12 next day. I am going back to work on Tuesday and i am really going to suffer for that this week. Grrrr

There is one part of my life which is just totally amazing at the moment, so much so i am struggling to believe it is happening.

Yet every other aspect of my life is a bit of a mess and not easy at all. I can emphasise with Raindrops, totally unmotivated and miserable!

[Zaf]

thanks woozywoo,  sleep disturbances and weird patterns are one of the curses of depression I find very hard to cope with.  I'm hoping all will be OK for Tuesday when I have to go to work too.

Its good you have one part of your life that is going well, do you find this time of year makes you feel a bit unmotivated as well as the depression?

[woozywoo]

January is the hardest month of the year for me. I am a teacher, so the run up to christmas in school is always busy and manic and i dont always get time to feel low. Then Christmas in itself is manic and busy. Then i go back in January the kids are usually on the come down from christmas, everyone is a bit miserable and it just drags. But with the snow in Jan the last couple of years it has made it go a bit quicker. So ive got my fingers crossed for snow 2nd week in Jan would be good...haha!!

Then in Feb its my birthday and half term and before i know it, its March, which is the beginning of the year for me i think...haha! Also in Feb i have booked a weekend in Belfast so have something to look forward to.

 But i have recently bought a day lamp, so going to keep using that and see if that helps a little. Does anyone else use one of these?

[Zaf]

omg that sounds quite manic!

I use a light lamp, I also use a daylight clock that simulates sunrise and sunset which I think works better for me, I hope your light lamp makes some difference, I hate the long dark nights

[woozywoo]

Ooo a daylight clock. That sounds interesting. I find that the worst part, the long dark nights. I cant get busy in the evening at all.,

[Zaf]

no I cant, I seem to go into hibernation mode once it gets dark, sometimes even meditating at that time of day is difficult

[Zaf]

these people call them wake up clocks,  I think I got mine from them http://www.lumie.com/shop/?gclid=CN7mvKqMr60CFYQLfAodnWyeoQ

[woozywoo]

Thanx for the link zaf. How long have you used one? Do you think it works??

[Lol]

There is one part of my life which is just totally amazing at the moment, so much so i am struggling to believe it is happening.

That sounds very positive Woozywoo what is going so well for you?! You're not pregnant are you?! 

[woozywoo]

Haha lol!!! That would be the miracle conception!!

I cant elaborate on what is happening at the moment but it is amazing! Maybe one day i can share it with you xx