How are you feeling today?

[doublep]

Is there somepne that could be with yohu for a while?

I'm gonna see a friend for an hour, but ill be alone after

[Zaf]

Could you find something to occupy yourself that will take your mind off things if you arent too tired?

[doublep]

Could you find something to occupy yourself that will take your mind off things if you arent too tired?

I shall try do something

[Zaf]

Stay positive if you can &*(

[cornish]

i do need them and in her opinion there pretty vital as im a high risk patient, but the solicitors are not replying to either of us so no more appointments, she has put me on her nhs waiting list but even then the earliest available appointment is late january.



im not overly bothered to be completely honest, yeah i do feel more relaxed when im having the sessions but i just prefer to be left alone to do what i want, when i want

[Alstare1974]

So it's an hour or so until bed and I feel tge most awake of the whole day :-( boo. Hopefully I'll be able to get to sleep when I do go to bed. Feeling quite pleased that I've stayed awake all day though.

[Holykimura]

I was having a really good day, until I found out that my dads been admitted to hospital with chest pains I don't have the best of relationships with him for reasons that will take me for ever to explain, but I'm still worried about him. My sister rang and told me and she asked if I wanted to go a see him. I selfishly said no because the last thing I need is for something to upset my recovery. However now I feel guilty that I didn't go, so I'm sitting here stuffing my face with quality streets. I was planning on visiting him tomorrow any way, do you think I was wrong?

[doublep]

Well I had an interesting night at home, tried to stay busy, watching tv and doing a few little things.

Although I did end up doing some damage to my arm, which at the time fascinated me...Felt a very spaced out after, and then fell asleep.  Woke up this morning and feel numb again, which at the moment I prefer.

[Glen53]

Doublep - I think you have done well to come through this, but its a worry that you are hurting yourself if you are alone for too long.

Holykimura - If you were not ready then it was not wrong. You are planning to see him today so there is no harm done. I think you may be being a little hard on yourself. I hope your visit today goes well

[doublep]

I suppose it is quite worrying at times... I'm gonna try get out of that habit somehow

[Zaf]

overwhelmed and frazzled

[doublep]

Whats causing you to feel overwhelmed this morning Zaf?

[Holykimura]

Thanks for the support doubleb may be I am being a little harsh on myself, zaf sorry your not feeling well keep strong x

[Zaf]

work I'm afraid Holykimura,  a customer wants an invoice for around £6,000 broken down into each heater serviced (11) the exact times worked and just about every nut and bolt used on the job,  just done one similar for another customer for a job over £10 k and will need to do one for around £7k for the first customer ready for when we invoice in anticipation they'll want the same

Then I shall go home and not have to think of work again till Monday morning :)

[smirfy21]

I received a letter this morning from the local mental health team with the date of my assesment which is good and what I have been waiting for, However I feel like a fraud because when I asked for my GP to refer me I was in a complete state and extremely depressed and suicidal, I now feel ok and like I'm just cycling through moods and that I could wake up feeling fine or wake up dreadfuly depressed and suicidal.

I think what is really bothering me is that the place I have to go for my assesment is an actual locked mental health unit, thats not to say that I will be locked in thats just how they do things for the safety of their sectioned patients, in the letter it stated that I am a high risk out patient and that it is important that they see me as soon as possible (I would no longer class myself as high risk and if I am classed as high risk why have I waited this long?)

this is all really getting to me because I hadn't really though about the fact that this is a proper mental health assesment (I have never had a proper mental health assesment) and that if they feel I am a risk to myself they can have me sectioned, the thought of being sectioned scares the hell out of me even more now because I know it is a possibility.

I don't know what to expect, I don't know how to tell my family what is going on and I am really concerned
smirfy